Wuxia Life

class chalet

2011-12-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

we were drunk okay. the 5 of us.
i was so stupid. SO FUCKING STUPID URGH.

well apparently the rest of them were watching porn in the room, so they locked it. and my bro was sleeping like a pig inside. and he was playing Halo outside.
i think he was quite drunk so he kept falling off the cliff (lololol?). and i guess he got a little angsty. it was 4am and he wanted to sleep and the door was locked so...drama.
by then the rest of the girls were 'asleep', so...yeah.

i was standing beside him...and he like seriously kicked the door and banged it really hard and shouted and curse and swore and called everyone inside cb. bro woke up to open the door and got the full blast of it ._. and then he yelled a bit and stomped out of the chalet

AND I FUCKING FOLLOWED WITHOUT SECOND THOUGHT. LIKE A....PARACITE? LOL. it was probably quite annoying because i guess he needed space? BUT I WAS WORRIED. AND I WAS FUCKING DRUNK. so i asked Matthew to come along because i would probably just add fuel to the fire.

well he walked into the dark and i just sat on the stairs with my head buried in my hands and Matthew came out and i looked out and he was gone. so i went to the vending machine where Matthew was and rested arm + head there like a fucking wasted drunkard and said in the most depressing voice ever, "I don't know where he went. how, what to do?" (something along the lines of that) and i guess it was quite obvious how i felt? but he probably already knows coz...THE WHOLE CLASS PROBABLY ALREADY KNOWS. and he was all calm like a boss and said he went the other side. so we went the other side and i hid behind the pillar while he went to console him? well but at least he went back...and slept on the floor outside ._.
on the way back up i said.....i was drunk coz otherwise i wouldnt have ran out after him. i would have just stayed in the room and slept like nobody's fucking business.

and NOT END OF DRAMA WTF. the guys went out to sleep on the floor beside him....and they were all under a blanket. and he wasnt. and it was cold outside. so i angsted them and called them bastards. and bro got sad and went out > climbed railing > sleep on roof thing. well at least they gave him the blanket ouo
so i had to go threaten to sleep on the roof before bro went in wtf. so they all went to sleep in the room. haiz.
after lying on their bed for awhile (coz i was bored and couldnt sleep) THEY ALL FELL ASLEEP and then i went out to sleep on the floor, yay.
like a fool, i couldnt bear to sleep on a proper bed when he was on the floor.
i can't stand myself sometimes.
but all the drama alcohol creates! glad i wasnt TOO drunk, haiz.

well they woke up in the morning and acted like nothing happened. he got up after me and yt....so i asked him if he was okay....and he was just like...ya. so cold (U) ;~;
and when i left early and said bye he didnt even look up he just totally ignored me WTFFFF MY HEART (U) x435876347217612349

you know i've been thinking...maybe i trample on his pride a bit too much. just saying.

life doesnt go on

2011-12-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

i realised that i spend around 80% of my life in misery.
i don't remember any time i've been truly happy without the burden of being sad at the same time.

no one to confide in, because i socially paranoid.
lifeless, in the sense that my life is not my own.
lost, because we always are; it's just a matter of whether we know it or not.
and i happen to have the lack of confidence, which told me this.

well i have lovely people around me, ofc. but i don't want to be a stupid complainy naggy thing. that's just really annoying.
my mood is just horrid in general.
and i don't know how to fix it.

i doubt that it would make any difference even if things were going my way.

maybe i just need an oven now.
i need an oven.
i need a fucking oven.

in a little corner of my mind

2011-12-07T11:55:00.003+08:00

sometimes...no, all the time, my mum is really annoying. i dunno where it came from, but she's a bitch now.
she never admits that she's at fault, even if she obviously is.
what kind of lousy role model are you?

fuck, i don't even know why i'm not screaming at her already.
and she would scold me for EVERYTHING.
bitch, grow up. i've already grown up i plan my time how i fucking want ok?
i'll go wherever i want, and if i get stabbed that's my problem.
just fucking get out of my life already argh.

raise your voice of greed to this world

2011-11-01T03:45:00.002+08:00

call me, call me, when you're cloudy, cloudy aching
call me, call me, when you're cloudy, yeah~

hold me, hold me, say this hold me, hold me
say this hold me, hold me, say this hold me, yeah~

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felt horrible just nao.
this song instantly lifted my spirits.
i need to care more about myself instead of giving all my attention to others.
i should come out of the shadows....
although thats where i belong.

i need to.....stop feeling anything at all.
why cant i be a psychopath or smth
it's so much easier if i were unfeeling instead
so much easier if i were socially isolated
if i never existed, even.

braindead is good too, since i think too much.

unfeeling

2011-10-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

im so empty nao. so numb.
i cant feel anything anymore
it's just this vast emptiness
well i feel dizzy but
i meant emotions.
i dont have them anymore

somehow it disturbs me
i don't get
my head hurts.
i want to scream.

you....
i've lost my fighting spirit
all thats left behind is a sigh of defeat
i want to fight on, of course
but im too tired
i have no more strength to feel the hurt
everytime i think of you
i can just barely manage a soft smile
but i still do, a small bitter one
of sadness, of regret, of unsaid words

you're still important to me though
i don't know why i hold you so close to my heart
but somehow it felt like it fit perfectly
perhaps that was just another delusion
a matter of perspective?
i don't know.
but

..."what you think you don't know is merely what you are in denial of"

weighted

2011-10-06T12:22:00.002+08:00

i feel like there are so many things and worries in my mind nao...
i dont even know what they are, i just want them off, all off.
maybe it'd help if i listed them down.

1. PW
2. ...
3. econs/bio

see, it's only 3 things. not like they're making sense to you, but i know :)
no. 2 is the most unsolvable i guess....just let time take its toll or smth.....

don't look away suicide circus

2011-10-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

im so tired. so tired of everything.
of my feelings,
of fulfilling other people's expectations,
of controlling myself, restraining,
of grades,
society,
i don't know what im doing
it makes me so sick

i just want to lay in your arms and forget everything but....
that just makes it even more painful.

it hurts

2011-09-28T00:53:00.004+08:00

so im back again, though i tried to stop myself
im such a weakling, cant even control myself properly.

it's be nice to have you beside me...
but it's fine if you're not, you know
i just hate how we've become strangers
and it's all my fault; you didnt even do anything
i just acted all cold and distant
which i hoped would dull the pain
but instead it became worse
because the distance became real.

and it's all my fault.
screw up.

i keep alternating between hope and hopelessness, i don't even.
im confused most of the time.
i don't want to think about it but i want to
i don't want to forget this feeling even though
it's killing me
it's like a good sort of pain that is killing me inside out but i want it

such madness.

i like it. not.

2011-09-21T22:23:00.002+08:00

and now i'm going to clean up after myself because you cannot see this.
i cant show this part of myself to anyone at all anymore.

i don't want to share this pain with anyone else.
from now on
it's mine. all mine.
......
(・∀・)

nothing to worry about; this isnt the first time im getting this.
and im still alive and fine right...?

i'll be fine. perfectly fine.
it's just a matter of time.
if it'll take years, it's years i will sit through with this pain.

i'm fi-
oh forget it.

a series of tweets

2011-09-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

My judgement has never failed me, yet i want so much for it to be wrong now.

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&everyday i want to tell you how i love you and love you more and more with each passing day <3 But NOOOOO I CANT :C

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What if the people who seem happiest all the time are like that so they can fill up their otherwise empty life and forget that they were sad

They must feel really horrible when they're alone.

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Deceiving yourself into happiness, but realise at the end of the day that you've been depressed all along

Pretending to put on a facade for others when they dont give a fuck, because it was actually just to lie to yourself.

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And even though you said "it's okay" when he said sorry, you know inside everything was screaming "NO IM NOT OKAY"

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Lies everywhere! You know what she meant when she said she was sick of it because you are too. You always were but you stuck to it. Why?

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Why do people say say what they dont mean? Why is it so hard to tell the truth? Who are you actually doing this for? Such selfish instincts.

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i don't know who did that.
it's really not me.
i'm a positive-thinking person!

and im a fucking liar.

re-heartbreak

2011-09-16T03:20:00.002+08:00

always. after i hear July 8.
it's like a memory relived.
a horribl-
no.

it didnt even feel that bad that day.
the worst feeling was the period between that day and the present.
i would always think about you
and it would always hurt when i did
and i would be driven crazy
so crazy

on the verge of....i dont know what.
tipping but not really....
because somehow i can never tip.
i realised that when....i dont know when.

actually i wouldn't call this a heartbreak
there's no heart to break
it's more of a....
soul-sucker.

if you get what i mean.

i could do with a wig nao

2011-09-11T00:35:00.002+08:00

like one with fringe that covers my whole face....um the huge shades work too.
i dont want to see people. i fucking hate people.
such annoying disgusting things
especially in crowds

i fucking hate my fringe nao.
so fucking short and awkward.
i feel like a hermit crab without it's shell.
so vulnerable and...shelterless.

my feelings are in a mix again.
i'm angry alright, damn fucking furious
i think i'm sad, because i feel like crying every fucking moment
and i do whenever i get the chance

i just feel...mad.
i can't keep this in check any longer
i think im on the verge of madness
i just want to destroy...something

kill people.
no, not just in the computer.
i mean like, real people.
i'm that mad.
i'm quite sure i belong in an asylum nao.

i feel so...unplugged
so frustrated at...something
i just want to tear...rip something...
to hit the wall so hard until it breaks and my hand bleeds...

head aint straight anymore
no, i don't think this is the tipping point yet
no, i can hold better than that
what is this monologue
i'm not even talking about what's driving me insane
totally missing the point

too much hate i don't want to talk about
too much hate
too much
too much...something
i don't know
i don't know anymore
i don't even fucking know who i am
i feel like a fucking tool
a fucking tool for 17 years

this isnt my life
this isnt my body
this isnt myself
nothing is how i ever wanted

i....

DONT KNOW.

maybe i should revive this blog

2011-09-03T01:42:00.000+08:00

fat chance

i hate myself

2011-08-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

i hate myself so fucking much.
i'm such a waste, my life is a waste,
im wasted.
im wasted.
im wasted.
im so wasteful.

i want so bad to at least keep this friendship alive but
i cant do it.
cliche, but most of the time it takes 2 hands to clap
i'm not one of those who can clap with 1 hand
my hand is too small for that shit.

i can say that i've done my best,
put in good effort
in pursuit of this.
and although it has become like this,
i let it be,
but i don't want my efforts to go to waste.

im trying to keep this balance,
but the balance is so fucked up i dont even.
i cant
i cant
i've used up all my courage...

Fuck no.

i lied

2011-08-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

i always thought i didnt care, but once again i find myself being wrecked and tormented by jealousy.
i'm probably thinking too much?
no, i think i'm right.
well i don't know anymore.
i don't want to think about it but i just keep doing it and.....
i see how thoughts can drive people crazy.
maybe i need a counsellor too, or a psychiatrist.
i'm turning horribly bipolar and all.......fuck.

i hate myself for doing this to myself.
i'm such a fucking failure

i don't even

2011-07-28T22:47:00.003+08:00

you know, i hate my paranoia.
i hate people so much.
i'm so anti-social, but idgaf.
i really really hate people.

my feelings are in such a mess now.
i think i hate myself, for not being able to organise and hide my feelings
for not being able to keep my calm when i had to
for fucking up everything when i'm responsible for maintaining the status quo
i hate myself so much.

sometimes i think i should just let things be, and i shouldnt do things with a motive? i should do something because i like it, not because i have some ulterior motive.
thats more like my style, no?
why do i even care what you think of me?
yes, this attitude, thats more like it.

Philia

2011-07-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

Dispel days of the dark
Need your love
Feel it in my soul

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i won't deny it, i'm ambivalent.

my music brings me courage and makes me strong, yet sometimes im so sick of these facades i have. for once i want to be weak, to drown slowly in my own painful depression, and enjoy it like a masochist. yes, facades. I've been doing it for so many years, it comes naturally to me. The pain of laughing while i'm sad, is already a frequent thing i've grown to accept and even like.

i like the emotional torture.

on the other hand...i seem to be consoling myself, grasping desperately at delusions and false hope. or really thinking sometimes that, hey, i really don't give a fuck. because all i wanted was for you to know how much i liked you, and to see that you're alright (almost) everyday. i told myself again and again that yes, that was enough for me, and it became so repetitive that i sometimes truly believed it. and i must say that it is true mostly. yet a small part of me still needs and yearns for your love too....i really don't know what to do.

i don't want to show you my vulnerable side, because i didnt want it to affect you too much. i've been pretending you're not there even though you were just beside me because i was afraid that acknowledging your presence would mean that you would see the tears i tried so hard to hold back. i wonder what you think of me whenever you spot me laughing carefreely, just a few days after July 8, as if nothing happened. are you thinking that maybe i'm trivial and it didnt really affect me and i've already quickly recovered? and even on July 8, i was so calm and casual about it, like it was a game i could totally afford to lose.

because it's all part of this facade im so familiar with.
im already a brilliant artist of deception, i think. and im not proud of it.

sometimes i think im so selfish, so contradictory, so....inadequate in so many ways i cant say. you said there are better guys out there, but the truth is just that i'm not good enough, isnt it? you have the charisma that i lack so much. so irresistably charming. so tell me the truth, i've made it clear that i like things blunt. even if it hurts me further...i'm already bleeding, it doesnt matter if i lose more blood, right?

and maybe if i would die and become a star in the sky, i might be happier. i would be able to bless and help you with anything. but then again, would you even look up to the sky and look for me as your guiding light? will i just end up watching over you hopelessly again?
i dont think you'll understand how badly i want to protect you, even though i couldnt even protect myself.
and why do i always, at the expense of my own pride, bend over to pick up the mess of broken shards of memories, only to be cut by them over and over again?

i'm so tired already....i just want to lie down forever and never get up.....
so cold.....

shichi gatsu youka

2011-07-08T03:33:00.001+08:00

七月八日

君と別れて二年が経つね
なんだか昨日のように思えるよ
別々の道歩いてるけど
まだ少し君の方向いてしまうよ

あの頃みたいに戻りたいなんて
格好悪くて言えないけど
本当は今でもどうしようもないくらい
君が好きだよ･･･
情けないくらい毎晩泣いてた
辛いから忘れようともした
でも思い出しちゃうね。
やっぱり寂しいよ･･･

君は今何処で何をしてるの？
大切な夢掴めたのかな･･･
心配なんて余計な事かもね
お願い、君の中から僕を消さないで

覚えて居るかい？涙と笑顔が
溢れてた大切な日々を
二人泣きながら
また会えるよねって、忘れないよって･･･
こんな泣き虫で弱い僕だけど
また一緒に歩いてくれるかい？
そんな日が来るまで何年でも待ってるよ

どうか声を聞かせて　僕は此処に居るから
もう何処にも行かないよ此処にずっとずっと居るから

声が聞きたい、電話をしてみよう　やっぱり今日もつながらない･･･
避けているの？それすら理解らない　そんなある日君を見つけたよ
幸せそうな笑顔の君今は愛する人と手を繋いでる

大人びた君はとっても綺麗で
悲しいはずなのに嬉しくて
元気そうな顔見れただけでいいなんて･･･格好つけて
声もかけれずに涙を堪えて
ただ小さく手を振ってみた
ありがとうねって、元気でいてねって

さよなら君へ
僕は今でも君の幸せを願ってるよ
もう会えなくなる大好きな人
本当にありがとう心から
さよなら元気でね
また会う日まで･･･

7月8日(木)晴れ

July 8th

Two years have passed since you and I broke up
but somehow it still seems like it was just yesterday
We've both gone our separate ways, but
occasionally I still [find myself] passing you on the other side of the street

I can't really say
that I'd like to return to that time, because it was very difficult, but
the truth is, even now I can't help but feel sad
because I still love you...
I was miserable, sad, and cried every night
You broke my heart, so I tried to forget you,
but [for some reason] I still think about you, don't I?
I'm just so lonely...

Where are you now, and what are you doing?
I wonder if you were ever able to fulfill those dreams that were so important to you...
Maybe I just worry too much about things like that, but
please, don't erase me from your life

Do you still remember? The tears and the smiles
that overflowed in those precious days
Then we wept together,
and said we'd meet again, that we'd never forget...
Even though I'm such a weak crybaby,
could we maybe walk together again?
I'll wait as many years [as it takes] for that day to come

Please let me hear your voice I'm still right here
I'm not going anywhere I'll always, always be right here

I want to hear your voice, so I'll try calling you on the phone But as I expected, you won't take my call...
Are you avoiding me? I don't understand it Then one day I ran into you
You looked so happy, smiling, holding hands with the person you're in love with now

You looked so grown-up, so very beautiful
and although it should have made me sad, I was kind of happy for you
Just seeing your face and that you're doing well is enough...so I tried to act cool
I couldn't say anything, though, as I tried to hold back my tears
So I just gave you a little wave
to say "thanks" and "I'm doing fine"

So goodbye to you
Even now, I still wish you nothing but happiness
You, the person who I love so much, who soon I won't get to see anymore
Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart
So goodbye, please be well
Until the day we meet again...

July 8th (Thursday), a clear day

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except that it was Friday.
and there wasnt any breakup and 2 years to talk about.

thank you, Ruki, for writing such beautiful lyrics.
thank you GazettE for this beautiful song.
it is my pleasure to have my heart wrecked by this song.

this is my song.

thank you Reita

2011-07-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

「常に思い切りよくいきたいかなとは思ってるんで。見逃し三振よりは、空振りしたほう
がいい。」- れいた, the GazettE

"I’m always thinking I want to do the best I can. It’s better to try and fail rather than let a good chance go by." - Reita, the GazettE

i just let the good chance go by, and then i saw this. it was a step too late but anyway, thank you Reita. i will heed your advice next time. Courage!! AND REITA, I LOVE YOU.

is it wrong

2011-06-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

...to express oneself?

please dont tell me that you want the old me back. there is no old me. i have always been myself. the 'old' me you always thought you knew is merely a delusion you created for yourself. in fact, i doubt if you even really know me at all. don't act like you know everything, because you really don't. YOU REALLY DON'T! what you think you know is just about an "ideal" and oppressed construct in your mind. it's a thing with no hope of life. don't even try anymore, im sick and tired of this.

and do you actually think i chose to be what i am? i AM what i am, you don't choose your identity because of someone else. you dont choose what you like because of general views (unless you're brainless shit), you like something simply because you do! And same goes for the other way; you don't choose to like things because they're not-mainstream and you want to be different. WRONG WRONG WRONG. what the fuck has other people's views got to do with this? what the fuck has other people's influence got to do with this? if i like it, i like it. i don't care what the shit you're trying to persuade or influence me out of this, because it's not going to change what i like, dumbass.

and i'm not going to wear a facade for anyone else but myself. it's utter disrespect to who i am and im not going to fucking pretend to be someone im not.

just....ARGH....i wish you would stop bugging me about this anymore, because if i really cared about image, i would be a fucking bimbo bitch. which you can see im obviously not so just stfu.

you cannot fathom just how pissed and frustrated i am about this issue i have said a thousand and more times about.

CONFUSED

2011-05-31T10:34:00.002+08:00

basically i have so many things going on in my head rn im just confused and high on my own sadness. brilliant. sometimes i just wonder if im even a girl, not being able to have a mishmash of things in my head w/o going mad.

talking to Cai nao <3 listening to her talk about Xiaohan and feeling rather....envious...haha. and you know i was just thinking, at this rate i'm srsly slowly turning into Hiko. she was kinda cheery last time and then after the emotional trauma which she never recovered from, she's just all like, "okay....haha........". which is what im increasingly becoming. and this is only the 3rd day of holidays wtf. i will never survive the hols :/ or i will come out not myself D:

sometimes i feel like giving up, because there really isnt any point in this if you arent in this with me? saves me the heartbreak and the time and the energy. and rly, i always have other people to fall back onto....right? right.......haha....

oh gosh i hate missing people. i wish i could stay up till 3 so i can have a full Pantsu convo together...like all 4 of us....being crazy and talking about expensive underwear and what not. and i miss my Momo bby :C and PT! i wish i could go onto PT again but somehow after you've gone....you just cant feel like you belong again....

i feel so horribly out of place nao, i just want to be out with yqq the whole day tmr :'C

fallen, fallen

2011-05-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

helplessly into your abyss.

for once i'm afraid of her, though i once thought i didnt care. but i do. I DO! i don't want to, i want to believe in this false hope. i will hold on tightly to this delusion. i will continue to look through these distorted lenses. i will go on thinking these warped thoughts.

i'll let myself be driven crazy everyday, just because.

i don't even.

Long Time No See

2011-04-02T00:15:00.002+08:00

and i think i'm wasting more time than ever.
my life is really going nowhere and my mind is preoccupied by stupid things i shouldnt be thinking about and i should be offline nao but i dunno why i felt like coming on blogger for awhile...

i guess i wanted to let some things out, but i cant really bring myself to say it because.....i dunno.
i dunno so many things urgh i wonder how come im in this stupid school. my brain just blanks out during times i should be thinking critically. you have no idea how pissed i am at myself.

and im confused. no, well, i'm actually just feeling a lot of things at a time, kinda like, bipolar. i know i want to talk to someone, but again, i cant make myself do it, because....i feel that it's such an unimportant thing to talk about when theres so much work to be done.

i havent been saying a lot lately, what with twitter's character limit and shits. this actually feels good, to be typing to myself.

i think i might be going mad.
i'm already mad, but it just keeps getting worse and i cant stop myself

Tokyo Shinjuu

2010-08-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

Father, Mother. I have gone to live with that person in Tokyo.
I know full well that it's a foolish decision.
But I'm no longer a child.
I can think on my own.
I'm sorry. Please forgive this last act of selfishness...

The person I love is my everything now.
It's because of your existence that I'm able to live as myself.
That day, I received from you,
A ticket to Tokyo
And a confession.
In my future and dreams,
When we get out of this town, won't you live in Tokyo with me?

While I was a bit confused I was also overjoyed.
There wasn't the least bit of insecurity or worry.
Because the person I loved asked if we could be together.
Even though tough or disheartening instances would probably more or less arise.
I came, throwing away the family I depended on.
My foolish presumptions and lingering were all
For the sake of the new life and dream that I would share with you.
Poverty spread to our bodies,
However because you were there,
Even the time I spent waiting for your return was one overflowing with happiness.
I cooked the dishes you loved, worked my heart into them.
I want to see your delighted face as soon as possible... I yearn to see it.

I have grown used to the life in Tokyo.
That person works hard and late into the night everyday.
Maybe it's because of that, I feel that he doesn't seem very energetic recently.
Even when I ask, all he does is show me a tired smile.
He won't give me an answer. I'm helpless in my worries.

I'm back

Your voice is so gentle.
The both of us have always been supporting each other during tough times
No matter what sort of unhappiness came about,
It was alright as long as we were together.
It's not that the love has become cold,
It's just that our feelings have been looking and facing away from each other.
The first time you cried
Was the night you were torn in society
How can my voice connect with you... please tell me how.
The family which I lost up for the sake of our dream
Was facing the front, just crying regretfully.
Poverty has hit us
We take each other's hand
As we watch the off-season sparklers.
This fire falls, it's lingering presence has passed away
Closing our eyes, we face the arctic-cold ocean... the both of us together.
Our linked hands were unseparable.
You and I became nothing.

The thirteen months I spent with you.
A lot has happened hasn't it?
We lived together so I can know that well.
You're tired from working too hard aren't you?
It's alright now because I will always be with you.
I'm sorry Father, Mother.
I can't live without this person.
I'm sorry for making the both of you worry.
Sorry. Sorry

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hurhur. i was just browsing that fella's dA and found this. like, the picture, not the lyrics LOL.
it reminded me that i havent been listening to Tokyo Shinjuu for forever.
and it reminded me to check out the lyrics, which reminded me that it was a kinda sad song.

recently been so depressed over life.
in other words, i've been angry at myself for my own art
it's been a growing pain, really.

you just kinda know you suck at art.
you try traditional painting, and you fail shits.
you try traditional colour pencilling, you fail more shits than you thought you could.
you try traditional markering, which you had more confidence in, you fail so many shits that the sewer outside your house gets clogged up and the plumber guys have to come fix it (to their great disgust).
SO YOU TRY DIGITAL, thinking that blur, layers, undo, etc. could save you. WELL YOU WERE MORE WRONG. blur just made everything look more like shit. real shit. and liquify diahorrea-ized it OTL (what's the purpose of liquify anws?)

OKAI NO. i was exaggerating. LOL. just...i have no time for any proper art i can proudly claim to have spent real effort and love in.
i suddenly realised how much i love all the art i'm doing, i could do it for the rest of my life.
i watch all the awesome people (yuumei, purplekecleon, etc.) and these people have the ability, time and resources to create beautiful art everyday.
and i envy them for it.
i envy them so much i wanna slit my wrists.
NO LOL.

i just wish that one day i can do that.
because i know that i will always have exams around the corner.
and after that will be A-levels
and then university life
and then working life

i will never be like them because this is the path that i chose for myself (i think?) and even though i want to throw everything aside to draw (and i can, sometimes, until the nagging machine kicks in, which means i dont get much time with my art) i can never do it entirely because...it's a losing game that i can't afford to lose.

i want so much to improve fast like all the other people.
i dont know why i can't do it.
THAT'S WHY MY LIFE SUCKS NAO.
urgh why cant anyone seem to understand this frustration

i hate living up to other peoples' expectations.
i really want to do what i love for the rest of my life
even if it means like i'll have "no future" or something like that.
but i'm somehow obliged to?
so i can only throw the homework part of my life away.

haiz at least i still have some time for art nao.

i hate how i lose the whole -rant- train of thought everytime i blog with the purpose of ranting :C

twitter is shou ghei

2010-08-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

nice one twitter, you turned a server breakdown into a "planned maintenance". nao i will never know if #happybirthdayharry, #killthespare, or #VOLDEMOTOUTBITCHES was ever the trending topic yesterday

meh. and it's been down the whole day wtf ==

and who the hell in their right mind sleeps at 12am coz it's LATE. ohgodno for one, 12am is NOT late ._.

oh and those who sleep at 9.30pm? aiya i got nothing to say -.-

Naraku is nice. And SHIVER too, somehow.

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The conflicting instinct and body
I was acting a pulsing "inversion"
Like clinging quietly onto it

Those two were very beautiful
Because I knew too much of this "impurity"

On top of the rapidly scattering sexual desire I answered with "I love you"

You seem to desire these wounds of nakedness as if you were ridiculing them
Because I felt you deeper than the pain
It is possible to pretend

My reason and body that will be broken I was gazing at this pulsing "oppression"
Like I was drowning in these hands

Those two were very beautiful ...

On top of the sexual desire that scatters in pieces I answered with "I love you"

You seem to desire these wounds of nakedness as if you were ridiculing them
You think that my body is sinking into the pain

Despite the hand that creeps across the curve of my neck I want to believe

Between the interval of love and hatred I was dreaming
The warmth will wear off
In the end of the love that I believed to be stained with passion

I saw hell

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UNFFFF WTH IS THIS DEEPNESS.
OKAI NO NOT REALLY. INCEPTION JUST FUCKED WITH MY MIND SO NAO EVERYTHING SEEMS DEEP.

but oh god, mindfuck and audience-inception by Inception feels damn good.
is this how the idea spreads liek a virus?

The farthest

2010-07-16T01:11:00.002+08:00

I was chasing my hope
Deep inside me
But nothing could be found
Grief inside me

I quake I break
My heart is awfully tired
I quake I wake
There's no turning back
My prayers have vanished. Everything's in vain
Here my story ends

This is the farthest end
Nowhere to go
All hope disappears in front of me
Nobody can hear my grievous scream from a place like this
in the dark

This is the farthest end
Sorrow overflows
The last flicker of hope has died inside me
I am lost and have lost all
Somebody embrace me now
Please embrace me now

The farthest - DELUHI

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This song is like...LOL WHAT HAPPENED TO DELUHI. and with those guitars it makes you think that Juri is going to scream "G-A-L-D" next == i dont really like this song la, except for the chorus, coz DELUHI never fails at stuck-in-your-head choruses. AND, did i hear right? this whole song is in English LOL. NICE ONE JURI.

gah so weirded though. *has nothing else to say about this*

in times of danger

2010-07-11T18:23:00.001+08:00

i feel oddly lonely on such days;
when i feel the impending doom looming towards me in the form of cca tmr :/

Last Bouquet

2010-06-24T11:52:00.003+08:00

Hey, you're watching my expressions like that
So you can find words that won't hurt my feelings, right?

"That we couldn't believe in each other is...?" Your fault?
"That I couldn't believe in you is...?" My fault.

Every time I laugh, your face looks so desolate
Is it because I laugh when you're in pain? [And so...]
So because of that, I'm running from your words again
I made your wounds deeper when I deprived you of your place

"You didn't notice?" That's not it
"You pretended not to notice" I was just trying to avoid you

I heard your voice calling out my name over and over again
But I just covered my ears and repeated those silent words... "[I'm sorry]"

Every time you yearn for me [Last bouquet] my heart is stripped away
You desperately try to find the right words [Last bouquet] because this is the only place for you
Every time you love me [Last bouquet] my feelings are stripped away
You can no longer go back to that place [Last bouquet] that had become your reason for living

[Ah] You're still confused, but the string has already been severed

[Every time I laugh, your face looks so desolate
Is it because I laugh when you're in pain?]

[Every time you yearn for me [Last bouquet] my heart is stripped away
You desperately try to find the right words [Last bouquet] because this is the only place for you
Every time you love me my feelings are stripped away]

You keep calling me, again and again; your ringtone wails for me to take your call
Over and over, again and again, I recall how so unforgivably cruel I was to you
Please don't keep sobbing over and over again just because I couldn't love you
Over and over, again and again, I find myself wishing that you didn't love me anymore
I want you to resent me to just wipe me from your memories
I want you to forget about me

This song is the last flower I'll give you, as well as the last love
More than anything, in this moment, I realize how cruel I really am

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can't stop reading GazettE lyrics :F
warped escapism i tell you

unf Romeo PV <3
and to get rid of the emo atmosphere in my posts (totally dun fit the layout <3) i shall do a stolen meme (from my dear Cai <3)!

Your mom finds a bottle of alchohol in your room, you tell her?
70% ethanol stolen from the lab to clean my mouth :/

You’ve locked yourself outside and no-one will be home for a few hours, you?
climb balconies

Have you ever kicked a wall, door, etc.?
yes ._.

Do you trust people?
some. not much though.

Are you cheating on someone right now?
**** no (lol)

Last thing you drank?
water

Have you ever had a bestfriend of the opposite sex?
when i was young :|

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
yeah

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
whut

Are you listening to music right now?
no :/ WAS listening to Last Bouquet though

Do you tend to waste a lot of your money?
meh.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
****ing annoying

Who’s bed besides your own did you last sleep in?
Hotel's

Have you ever dated someone longer then a year?
no -.-

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?
yes. myself :F

What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
LOL i'd tell them they're mad coz i dont have a brother

Do you believe once a cheater always a cheater?
i dunno D:

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
yes. myself lol.

Do you miss anyone?
yes :/

When was the last time you hugged someone?
Fluffy?

Are you nice to everyone?
not really :/

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
uh....must i say it?

What are you listening to?
nothing bummer.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?
lol wut

Where’s the last place you went besides your house?
French class <3

Are you short?
very

Does anyone know your MySpace password?
do i even have a MySpace?

Will this weekend be a good one?
no :/ OMGfrenchtest.

Do you smoke weed everyday?
yeah. i pick seaweed from East Coast, stuff it in a straw and burn the straw while sucking in poisonous smoke

Who’s bed were you on last?
mine

Do you like the idea of promise rings in relationships?
whut.

What does your best friend call you?
YL/oi ._.

Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
i just cleared it ==

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
red? (omg i love it when Yomi has pretty blue contacts in Romeo PV <3)

How many pillows on your bed?
5 :F

Who was the last text message you sent to?
Rin mei~

What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
Nothing (oh god i feel like Ruka)

Who was the last person that made you laugh?
Cai

Do you like Quiznos?
wassat o.o

Have you seen your best friend cry?
yes

Do you dance in the car?
wth

Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you’re sleeping?
Early no. when i'm sleeping yes.

Who is in your house right now?
Mom and Fluffy

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
not really

Do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
more and more

What shoes did you wear today?
none

Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?
no. she'd be mad to.

What is making you sad?
my paranoia and fail

Have your parents seen your MySpace page?
do i even have one? -.-

Where is your sister right now?
in hell.

Have you ever done a chinese fire drill?
WTF LOL

Do you have a chair in your room?
duhh

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
nevarrr

If the last person you dated said they were in love with you, what would you say?
huh?

Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
my ex what ._.

Whats currently bothering you right now?
paranoia and words

When were you last outside?
Saturday

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
Juliette.

Who did you last say I love you to?
YQQ lol

Have a best friend?
maybe

Whose graduation will you attend next?
IM EFFING PONNING FAM (unless we get THE geek shirt togetharr)

Has anyone ever hung up on you?
my phone ._.

How have you felt today?
tired and depressed

Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now?
depression D<

Ever had a boy best friend?
havent you ask this b4? o.o

Do you wear a lot of makeup?
none

Do you straighten your hair often?
nvr

What are you up to this weekend?
french test D:

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
no o.o

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
wtf no

What is something you like to do when you’re down?
read GazettE lyrics

Do you think anyone’s thinking about you right now?
maybe?

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
no

Were you happy when you woke up today?
no

Last time you laughed?
forgot -.-

Do you regret anything from your past?
yes and it's not helping nao

If you could seek revenge on someone, would you?
maybe

Last argument?
forgot :/

Do you have trust issues?
PARANOIA.

Have any stalkers?
no ._.

Who was the last person you stayed up with till 2am?
Joy :F

Portugal looks dead beside Brazil lol

PARANOID

2010-06-22T09:04:00.001+08:00

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REGRET

2010-06-21T10:47:00.001+08:00

Noticing the loosened thread, I should've kept tight forever.
That which overflowed and spilled out, seems the same color as you that day.

Gathering up, the words you abandoned
Putting them to my ears again and again, I showed you a nod.

Burning pink neon, with the reason I can't find you

The screams were soon, written off as ridiculous. I laughed at myself

Noticing the loosened thread, I should've kept tight forever.
That which overflowed and spilled out, feels the same as you did that day.

Gathering up, the tears that you cried
I go to fold the chair, that I fall into again and again

We stood together on the road

I got a piercing just like you
I wore a ring just like you
and put on rouge just like you

I coloured my hair the same as yours
I saw tears that look like yours
Because I cried out a name the same as yours

Down my fingertips, serenity waltzes

Someday, we’ll be holding hands

In a drenched end roll, I wont sing a black-and-white film
Left with our hands together, you feel vacant at the end

Cutting the loosened thread, I sleep with the gathered words
That which overflowed and spilled out, surely closely resembles you.

Dreams are eternally as dreams

Serenity is always in dreams

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Internal conflict.

Lately i've refound joy in reading GazettE lyrics.
haha the irony.

Recently...okai not so recently, REGRET has grown on me. It's so happy sounding that it's so wrong lol. not like wrong wrong you know. but like, wrong wrong. haha not helping XD

i should get on with getting the whole GazettE discography :F i cant believe i havent got that done yet D< *slaps self*

okai suddenly reminded of Sumire PV. was it that? the one where they pick up and caress mannequin body parts on the beach XD ahahaha trying hard not to laugh pffft

RIGHT. left. no. yes. (i cant believe im doing this lame thing to myself ._.)
no wait. what was i going to say. oh yes haha. internal conflict.

recently, (like just before this) i went to a friend's blog. and realised how deep her trivial-ness is. OH GOD LOL NO. and i feel inspired to be deep (haha fat chance). but i dont really like writing about deep philosophical things. well, yeah, not really ya. oh and makes me realise how shit my english vocab is. you know in 4 years the only new word i've learnt is esoteric. yah "esoteric" == why? because of Esoteric Romance and Dan Brown. HUR. very impressive.

yadayadayada. nvm, we has some Beatles fun nao! haha

haha i cant believe some ppl's epicness XD
I CARN'T SPEL lol.
whoa whoa yea~
take it easy
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your ha-a-a-a-a-a-and~~~~

LOLOL GOING CRAZY HAHA nvm i think i'll stop before i explode or smth :F

fuck elitists

2010-06-18T18:14:00.003+08:00

you think you very pro issit,
competing with 4 other teams for the top 3 prizes
5 teams competing is a lot hor
if liddat then what is 66 teams
you say ppl is disgrace
so you got what you wanted right, happy la
you think you flash your butthole veh nice meh
pull up your stinking pants luhh
no one wants to see your fucking dirty asshole
YOU're the disgrace pls

some people just need to fucking shut up their holes

my packing skills suck shit

2010-06-03T21:11:00.002+08:00

lolol srsly la
i srsly tot i finish packing last night okai. then in the end today dunno put in things so many times le

trying very hard to explain what the wang wang melty balls are to Clare o.o
not working D:
finally rembered it's called xiao man tou
OKAI SHE WANTS THEM TOO 8D
lolololololololol HIGHPER.
HER SWIMSUIT IS ORANGE AND MINE IS BLUE HAHAHAHAHAHA
NICE COMBINATION!!!!!! LOLOLOL

ei recently i've developed this extreme fondness for this blog coz of our similar urls ;D

...YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE THINKING.
will miss you too yaaaaa quack~

damn Lidan :/

new layout ♡

2010-06-03T19:00:00.004+08:00

okai i have a new layout! might be a bit hard to read...?!
i thought it would be nice to get it done before i leave

well i'm acherly done except for block quote, but i thought nvm la coz i oso always never use blockquote de. lol. acherly scrollbar oso la, but it dun work in MF so nvm :F

so.....BYE. i'm going to airport at 3AM! say your last goodbyes!
will miss you guys buuu~
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! ;D

the lack of e

2010-05-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

pls. ppl stop telling me to get tumblr.
i got like no time already and ignoring my blogspot most of the time
i'm sure you dont want me to die of sensory overload right?

i keep forgetting the title

2010-03-03T00:27:00.003+08:00

almost silent night.
just you, me, and my tinnitus.
what a mood spoiler D<
perhaps sharing a kinder bueno would help; the crunch of the wafer layer will drive away the humming in my ear!
for a while only.
but still, it makes it less annoying.
why am i typing
in weird little lines here?

2010-03-02T02:24:00.004+08:00

遠く遠く　離れていても
同じ月が見えるはず打から
心だけは君の隣に居させて

Far away far away, even when separated
It's the same moon we should see.
And my heart will only be beside you
-Tsuki no Hikari, Utsutsu no yume [Nightmare]

everytime i listen to this song and when Yomi sings it...it's so touching....i just feel like crying, for some reason. because it is the very thing that is me, and what i hope for. of course the best is to never be separated, but that has become rather impossible, so this should be the best i could wish for.

星に”願い”じゃなく”誓い”を
to the milky Way　聞いてモノローグ
「これから先何年も一緒」だと
只其れだけ　云いたい一言
swear Forever repeat forever-
約束をした待ち合わせ場所
「相変わらずだね」曇り空の地下
星が無いなら星になればいい

To the stars send not “wishes” but rather “promises”
to the milky Way
Listen to my monologue
“From now on, no matter how many years, let’s always be together”
is all I want to say
swear Forever
repeat forever-

Our promised meeting place
“It’s the same as always, right?”
Under cover of a cloudy sky,
if there aren’t any stars, let’s just become stars
-Ozone [vistlip]

haha yes and after we're separated, lets meet somewhere under the ozone yes? not like somewhere in the heavens once a year on a bridge of magpies. thats really sad....and pathetic.

and if you ever listen to either of these songs(please do although it might not be of your taste and the guys might all look emo), please think of me.
(the brackety thing just spoilt the mood of the whole post ==)

the night

2010-03-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

i love the deep night (深夜 haha). but i get very irrate at this time. because i love it with just me, my music, and my art.

BUT why do i have to toil through the beautiful night with homework. why is it that artitificial white light shines on my desk, and not the moonlight, just like they always say in pretty poems and storybooks?

it just gets on my nerves and i just slam and whack and swipe everything violently on my table, which makes it messy, which was just wad i wanted. but the mess just makes me more frustrated and there i go again. Masochist, i tell you.
and yet the masochist is such a beautiful thing.

and nao, even w/o homework, my night will always be accompanied by my tinnitus, which never fails to add to my misery. FUCKYOU.
and i refuse to admit that it's the fault of my earphones.

staring at Yomi doesnt help much either. it just reminds me of the pain and everything just gets worse. LIFE SUX LA so i shant try to do anything about it == except to pamper myself whenever i can. LIKE BUY MYSELF A WHOLE SET OF 72 COPIC SKETCH MARKERS LOL. let's start small though. with my brilliant GIANIZM shirt! ♥

LOL. i hope lor.

How would I know

2010-03-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

how you really feel?

Everytime I talk to you, I fear we become more distant. It's like I've lost the sense of connection with you; I really don't know what you're thinking. I'm afraid I will say something wrong.

I want to just show it all to you; sometimes it's just too suffocating to hide it. Why would I rather that you hear it from others instead of directly from me? Then I should leave, without a trace, so nobody can track me down. Those who find me will be new, and I trust I will not make the same mistake with them, as the one I made with you.

Will you miss me when I'm gone? If you're ever reminded of me, will you cry and remember everything we have done together? Or have you already long forgotten who I am, just because I am not the old me?

Because I cry when I know how much far apart we are now, how hard I must paddle to reach you again. Yet I cannot, because I will paddle away from the rest of them, whom I so dearly love too.

Please don't try to uncover me. Hiding is the only way I can remain intact. Not torn between both shores. I want to continue floating in the sea freely, albeit aimlessly.
And if I have to go for the sake of my selfish heart, the last of me shall be with you.

I hope that on the day I disappear, I too, will be in your heart.

RIP Piyo

2010-02-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

R.I.P.

urgh wth

2009-08-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

i changed my url! XD
and a bit of my layout :3
i feel like making a new one though
lol <3
askjdhfasdf
nothing
im so bored
i need to try to summarize those readings (which my mind is currently too simple to understand)[what did i just say?]
oh yay hist pt is finally over.
ohmians still need to mug for hist SA T.T
eh and chem spa and physics spa *faints* urgh
blogger damn weird today o.0 the colours all suddenly gone and it looks shou weird == ohwells nvm
gtg summarise >D

yay

2009-08-02T11:54:00.000+08:00

watched Harry Potter yesterday. FINALLY. and i so totally agree, i think HermioneXHarry is so much better than RonXHermione or HarryXGinny. Ginny is so ugly urgh. and the whole movie is too centered on love ==

but hey, i like the effects. like the ring of fire in the cave. but the Burrow wasnt supposed to burn (that was so irrelevant and extra). and if ppl were to not read the book, they wouldnt know that woman who called Lupin sweetheart was Tonks ._.

and the movie is like...they filmed parts and clumped them all together in one sudden random movement. like the whole thing was jerky. and why did sectumsempra not cut through Malfoy's shirt?!?!!

hmm. and there was this auntie sitting beside me damn annoying. her phone keep ringing and beeping and she keep smsing and even talked on the phone...spoil my movie experience -_-'''

but then i still loves it <3 coz it's HBP

and 大唐游侠传！<3 i think there's something wrong with me, coz i like 羊木劳 (did i get his name correct?) he's so evilly cool 8D okai nvm. there IS smth wrong with me. maybe it's because Tie Mo le hates him and i dun like tie mo le (wth shifted to hanyu pinyin) XD but i likes 空空儿 too! :D

hi

2009-06-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

hi. state of unmoving depression. VERY excited about maple (OMGKNIGHTSOFCYGNUS).

i love roasted almonds; so yummy! @w@ reading Harry Potter...AGAIN. doesnt seem to get boring. just cant get enough D: and i cant wait for the 6th movie to come out 8D the trailer iish shou COOL!!!! sad Dumbly-door died D: but the coolness of everything else will make up for that. i hope.

i feel so cornstipated...AGAIN. i need some kind of godly lb dagger...askdjfhasf...acherly i need a blade staff...element staff also can...BUT BLADE STAFF IS THE BEST! Alchemists' maker skill is shou awesome! :D

im shou awfully messed up and full of PTs. i dont wanna do anything...RIGHT NAO, THE THING I WANNA DO MOST IS MAPLE! D< ereb queen's garden/opening of sygnus bgm is so nice...it makes me feel calm and...drowsy :S love it so much i cant wait for the release 8D

i think im going crazy

ok i AM.

oh yay cant stop playing pokemon. i found the wonder of pokemon emerald (and wad happens when i try a cheat...offed the damn power too early). pokemon silver is faster...but emerald is...how to say...?!...um...argh...more funner coz of good quality graphics XD

may the PTs go away D< i wan a FPS outing T_T to make up for the non-existent IC trip...grrr...hate swine flu RAWR stupid pigs

im itching to the point of no return...haha thats so weird...

the only thing i can think of nao is KNIGHTSOFCYGNUS and my weird itch coz it's shou annoying. URGH. KNIGHTSOFCYGNUS<3asdmfjhaksjdfhgds

driving me crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i should do something about all that black misc space...NAO...urgh...lazeeeeeeeee

i should make a new blogskin too. but...i dowan to change this one! it's just...too cool D:

hello dear my bride

2009-04-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

hellos darlings? (wth is wrong with me?!)

okai...(OKAIOREITAOAOIOURUHAORUKIOLOL)...apparently my extreme fear of the swine flu and the swine flu resulting in the cancellation of FPSPI this may/june IS TAKING OVER MY LIFE!?!? am sooper freaked out by weird mutated viruses that spread faster than SARS. urgh. freaky.

and somemore we doing pandemic for FPSPI this year. got meeting on tuesday :D happie.

do i need a new layout? ~~yes!~~ NO! i love my current one :D and i havent properly filled up all the tabs yet ): i needs to! D<

life getting very sien. all the homework. and i dont understand a single thing in physics. Ms Sya should stop having such a lullaby voice....should be something like Quah's. then i wont fall asleep. grrrr.

um...yeah1 im getting really bored although there are too many things to do 8( wow new face! 8D hahas. the H1N1 thing is still freaking me out. GET OUT NAO.....it wont go away D: hates it to the core >D<

cant wait for majestical parade :D (Melody is nice but sad...not catchy though...CANT LISTEN TO THE RADIO RIP OF CAN YOU DO IT? OHNOES!)

inactivity

2009-04-16T23:05:00.003+08:00

haiz. havent been posting for a damn long time le...dead...sibeh sien >.<

dun feel like posting la; all the laziness washing and drowning me D: and im foaming laziness at the mouth. sheesh. chinese pt...the instructions why like so many pages missing de ah? aiyo.

hmm Ms (S)Ong came to join our English lesson 2dae so it wasnt so bad. or else Yap would have dominated the class with her pregnacy and sacarsm D:

mathh is getting annoyingly harder. esp nao the quadratic functions wad crap the alpha and beta...omg *faints*

i need moar brain juice! urgh fps! i wish i could just do fps all the time...unfortunately i cant D: but itz so much funner than crap...like chinese drama omg tmr gonna get scolded by tchr. i havent memorised my part yet shyt. SHYT. and neither has zxx and yq prolly too so WE'RE GOING TO GET SCOLDED AS A GROUP D< urgh the syf ppl have too high de standards T.T

ohwells. ORA is stupid as usual ._. and.....*no comment* coz there's nothing to talk about D:

dont joo think i should draw more wuxia stuff...?! :D

pi day

2009-03-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

it's pi day tmr :3

2009-02-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

havent posted for a super long time D: got english SA tmr. oh i am SO NERVOUS *says it in Mrs Yap sacarstic tone* and that's why imma doing bio nao.

super scared of bio. and OMG physics. it seems that i have learnt nothing in the 3 sciences since the start of this year. i dunno why, it's just so odd D<

and SOCIAL STUDIES. total faint by crap. and History is not that bad... just need to memorize and crap more.

got CCA batch outing on Monday, BUT I HAS HISTORY PAPER until 11.50 D: so end around 12. and CCA starts at 2pm. wth? that's bad D: got not enough time for the history ppl T.T hates geog >.> i dunno how thats related, but still hates geog

TAT

2009-01-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

no the title is not tat. it's a face --> TAT see? nvm.

haiz. Nightmare's new LIVE DVD is out >.>

i dont get why my parents not like Nightmare that much. It's just Visual Kei, and they're not that bad. i mean, from my perspective their songs are nice, that's why i listen to them right? i dont listen to something just because it's different. i mean if it's different and it happens to be nice then i'll like that too la. but different + nice would be coincidental, if u get what i mean.

and they're NOT emo ppl. really. you should just look at Sendai Kamotsu and look back at Nightmare then u'll see ._. rly. they're hyper and silly and all that...except Ruka == haiyo. and plus they dont have bad messages in their songs...not like a lot of english and chinese songs...which sing about "i love you, you dont love me, i go suicide yay" and etc. etc. they dont even have any songs which sing about love...except their latest one ._. which is really quite harmless, coz i wouldnt understand it anw and i aint bother to decode all that crap in the lyrics.

and i am NOT a japan freak. i do NOT like pocky, i do NOT speak newfangled random japanese words. i do NOT want to live in japan. i do NOT want to....yea u get me. i am NOT a japan freak. me liking some parts of japan doesnt mean im a japan freak. coz IF i were a japan freak, i must be some uber patriotic Singapore mega freakier freak. yes thankew.

and please la. guys with slightly longer hair is ok. it's not like it's very long...(im not referring to Ruka/Ni~ya)...it's not like im going to marry any of them or smth (ergo there will be no (in)direct impact on me/us)...plus it's not like it will do anything to me (it's fine for girls to have long hair. i am a girl. YES I AM!). and i WILL NOT dye my nice BLACK hair, tyvm. rawr.

._. that was ranty? i feel like i could do more. just dont want to.

Happy 牛 Year!

2009-01-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

我不想睡。
i feel like drawing >.> maybe it's just boredom. i dont feel tired. i feel frustrated at the stupid SS essay. lol SS S-say. hmm i found 3 of the songs i heard on the Qantas flight to Melly. luckily none of the annoying ones. yes, and i found the GazettE one. GUESS WHAT? It's Guren == lol. and the other 2 are ikimonogakari's Hana wa Sakura Kimi wa Utsukushii and Arashi de One Love ==

i rember i kept waking up at one annoying song that keeps singing "My lady....My honey" and so on and i would fall asleep after that, missing the GazettE song. i only heard it once and thought like: omg Ruki's voice ._. so obvious-sounding ==

mmmmm btw Happy New Year to everyone! rawr >:3 that was random.

is it a good thing to 欠功课过年？maybe not...then i have to finish everything nao D: as long as i do not go to sleep, it is still not the New Year! lol wad selfish thinking XD so i shall stay awake to do my werk =P

noooo

2009-01-11T09:40:00.003+08:00

NOOOO i dread OBS. it's like robbing me of my 一枝梅 time. and i kinda hate myself for making chinese-typing harder coz i got ttly used to pressing space after everything (that's for jap typing). um lol. and NOOOO i hate bio hmwk. and stupid chinese 私函. urgh. and the quicktime player thing keeps shutting on me...どうして？？？？？？

Maple removed the stupid ranking thing ._. argh. i think i forgot to do something impt regarding skool but i forgot wad. srsly. argh.

GUESS WHAT? it's the start of the year and already i cant wait for Sakito's birthday...*ahem**cough*...if u get what i mean...but this is really ridiculous...

NVM :D

i think. im addicted to CSS making. i mean like, IT'S SO FUN. nvm.

see the wonderful DA subcription Maffy got for the club......layout looks overly reddish though. argh bad ==

i was telling my mum about the bahu on Mr de Souza's head, then suddenly i thought of OHNOES all the male teachers thinking bahu was COOL and like the new fashion. so all of them end up dyeing their hair orange and perming it so it looks bahu-ish D: that's so funny to think of...imagine Mr Ho having bahu on his head D: ok maybe not that good .-.

I SHOULD START ACTIVELY PROMOTING MY ART

2009-01-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

yes, i shood start actively promoting my cg art. YESSSSHSHSHSHSH i do CG ._. oh you didn't know that? (i knew u didnt) that's why THIS is especially for you.

http://sabriei.deviantart.com

urgh i know the font/link aint very fancy, but HEY WHADDYA KNOW?!?!?! nothing ._.

i feel bored. i wish i could draw better or smth. the History teacher is so modern (4 yrs older than us) i bet she doesnt know anything about Hist. ahh damn. this is so bad. and the Physics teacher is so mean. She took Linette's pencil case without permission and kept throwing it on the floor at her feet to demonstrate her stupid cavewoman thing == so evil. and everytime got that dropping sound Linette jumps in shock (ouch). so bad one.

the art club tchr wans to see my sketchbook. OMG. what if there are pedobears inside?!?! (yes i do attempt to draw pedobears. they haf quite a unique design u know. nvm stupid ed.

everyone shood go join DA (defence academy/dumbledore's army/DEVIANTART/whatever) coz it's nice (i mean like there are good artists there, even if u excluded all the anime artists). ohwells.

and i cant belif im Physics rep just coz i said i like Physics *rolls eyes* i kinda regret. the tchr is so mean >.> and i need to collect money from everyone by tmr......die? oh mians....and OH NOES I DREAD BIO D:

do expect to see me dead after thursday (Physics tchr will kill me)

oh yay 一枝梅！

oooh PRETTY

2008-12-31T16:51:00.002+08:00

BEHOLD THE WONDERFUL ZIPANGU SERIES MAPLE CARD COLLECTOR SET!

(picture stolen from maplesea website)

it's so pretty raiite? limited edition, very ex and only 100 pieces sold in Suntec City only XD the crow is so cute...and even mong seems cute -3- gahh!

and whaddya know? my typical Singaporean i-must-have-limited-edition attitude kicks in here! =O= but i think, it's already sold out. not like i have the money. not like i can even if i have the money either. and it's so ex T.T *shoots the fat blue crow*

XD but i feel hyper seeing it, like IMHIGH [insert imhighplz icon]

nvm == i think i over-hypered D:

oh yay

2008-12-23T20:25:00.002+08:00

OH YAY IM HIGH [insert imhigh face]

i think, I SHALL FILL UP ALL THAT BLANK CLICKABLE SPACES (those that say misc nao) WITH SURPRISE RUBBISH (i think i will be too lazy to do so)!!!

drawdrawdrawdrawdrawdrawdrawYAY!

Time magazine website is so fun. they have this top 10 odd protests thingy which is really funny, and they have a lot of Obama stuff (his face is on almost every page; no matter whr u click, you cant run!!! muahahaha!!!!!!!) and they're all weird XD

dalphdalphdalphdalphdalphWARMMILK!

imma probably gonna read my Harry Potter series another time (it gets better somehow). oh. and i feel stupid. i finally realised what the message on the mirror of Erised is. its jumbly backwards and had a hard time reading it (Autism much?). but it says: i show not your face but your hearts desire. mians. i was stupid. i was just sitting in the toilet reading it when i realised it somehow looked like English. lol.

shame. lol wut

i must be mad (how many times have i said this?)

lalalalalalaland

2008-12-21T23:16:00.001+08:00

today went to eat sushi ^^ mie iish happie ~.~

anws dad watching the wad 黄金 show thingum...he said they spent a lot of money on it so it's watchable >.> lol so funneh.

boxes rock. esp rock boxes. coz they're box-y and boxiness is highly appreciated. i cant seem to think correctly nao. my mind is just...blank. and i feel undescribably lazy and i want to draw something amusing but i cant. not inspirational at all >.>

Happyville is such a pretty place :D

I hate smokers ~.~

HAPPYVILLE!

2008-12-18T18:24:00.003+08:00

haha im so happy coz Happyville is back! yes our all time favourite maple Christmas town! ^^ gah! omgomgomg haiz T.T i wan play ~.~

btw i cant remove myself from the Harry Potter book. it seems so good to read it again and again...all of a sudden == bah humbug!

weird dream

2008-12-15T12:50:00.002+08:00

i had a super weird dream last night. like REALLY weird. i cant rember the whole thing, but then, there were some parts.

like visiting Voldemorts house and talking to him as if he was my friend or smth. Then i started asking him how to make horcruxes...but he didnt want to tell me D< mmmm....i rembered Dumbledore was dead, and there had been some PayPal confusion involved...weird huh?

oh, and then following the PayPal confusion, there was online shopping in the shower, where u were enclosed in a glass box with water sprayed on you and a faulty glass touch screen computer which only allowed you to shop for scented soaps. uh lol.

and then i dont quite rember. i've been having weird dreams lately, coming with the insomnia, i suppose? i rembered yesterday night's involved me running into a library full of computers user locked by seniors == eh...

yayyayyay happie!

2008-12-14T16:08:00.003+08:00

yayayayayayay YAY! im happy. happy. happy. coz we're gonna have a 武林小会 ^^ happy. i feel like writing a poem about nothing at all lol. i feel like writing about xmas. i feel like drawing....nvm == i feel like....not doing anything too. okay maybe i just feel bored == haiz

allergic

2008-12-11T11:10:00.002+08:00

i think im allergic to grapes (yay!). i was eated-ing them last night and it was killing my throat T.T see? allergic to grapes.

i wonder why, but i've been thinking of count dracula a lot. as in the Sesame Street one. then i think of Elmo. then i start thinking: i wanna watch Sesame Street. then somehow i start thinking of Pokemon, then oh yea btw Pokemon crater is up again: www.pokemonbattlearena.net

um lol. u have to activate your account though, and it might glitch and give you all your pokemon except the lvl 100 ones == heh.

i wonder how paid to _____ sites work...i dont see how they're making any profit at the rate that they're giving out $$. and i realised i have like $1 in the stupid emailcashpro thing...from clicking emails. uh lol.

wah so fast is gonna Christmas soon....though it wouldnt be exciting...i dunno? im kinda not looking forward to it coz it means hols are almost over :S

pirate job seems very fun :S i heard lvl 20 can deal about 200+ dmg with one punch (for pre-infighter stage) D: i wan wan wan infighter T.T and i wanna 武林小会 too.

and i think im not hyper nao. i think it's from the excessive insomnia >.> i keep on rolling about for hours before i can fall asleep. it must be because of the holidays. holidays make me unsleepable. ~.~

i still cant play the whole of cassis on piano. the guitar solo is killing me >.> why is the beat so odd? so many notes in threes...and there are 2 very long guitar solos >.< i just realised. solos flipped the other way round is also solos. lols @_@

creeps

2008-12-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

eee eurh. it gives me the creeps to read about Ebola virus while eating orange...urgh it feels like....nvm D8 it's freaking me out. maybe i should stop reading, but the more i read the more i want to read. oh lol it's like a horror movie >.>

BACK but missed lots

2008-12-03T19:43:00.002+08:00

Back from aust :3 but missed a lot of stuff D:

well, lets start counting. i missed build a bear for...ahem. hmm...and i missed the opening of new world in Maple, Fornax. Missed the release of Pirate job too D: got LOTS of notices in MapleSEA website >.> well, missed the release of Naked Love PV in the web...by a few days. it's ok XD haha i like to laugh at Maple global...they got their Pirate job a month later than us XP but MOST IMPTLY i missed Triceratan found day T.T well i WAS looking forward to it the whole year. was hoping to do smth special...like a special report == oh well. could do a belated one >.<

today is the release of Naked Love :D i just heard the 2 songs...i think Mad Black Machine is nicer oh lol. cant find the high quality PV for both of them.

anws im missing Happyville...you know, THAT nice happy (duh) Christmas town? yeah D: oh well >.> i wonder what kind of Christmas stuff they have this year T.T

lalala will be gone for a month

2008-11-07T09:59:00.004+08:00

I felt a bit weird. so i need a quiz to release the...um...weirdness? oh i rember. i need to write a philo passage 8D go check out http://triceratan.blogspot.com/ for it XD

Do you have secrets?
That's a secret =X

How do you explain love?
*copies from jrock forum*:
it is wrong to derive love of someone just because they are famous and cool and you listen to them and blahblahblah etc. i guess a big part of us ppl here dont really LOVE a jrocker. have you asked yourself whether you were willing to sacrifice everything for that person, even if he doesnt love you? or something along that line...and i guess theres some kinda distorted understanding of love and marriage in society today...D: [*continues copying from the many forum essay posts*] I think most people that say they love and wants to marry someone in a band is like that because they are famous. I mean, you'd never ever heard of that person probably unless he was famous. So it is kind of wrong. It has the wrong.. ah what was that word again.. wrong intentions. I doubt anyone would actually go as far as to sacrifice everything for that person. I mean, he has never heard of you. In the end, there is probably not many that would do that. Probably no one.One thing about marriage is, it is something you do if you really love someone, and are going to spend the rest of your life loving him or her. But most people these days get a divorce. It's just like.. marriage is kind of just a possesive thing. It's like put a ring on your partner just cause you need to know that person belongs to you. But in the end, if you really love someone, marriage isn't really needed. Just cause you marry, doesn't mean you love each other more. Just cause you marry, it doesn't mean you will stay with that person for the rest of your life. [this is getting nowhere. but anws, *continues to copy*] uh and marriage half becomes a money thing, like when u marry a rich person and you take the money and run away with it? yea like that ._.but then probably if you really loved someone u would sacrifice anything for that person even though he might not know you. you might think something like: 'it doesnt matter if he doesnt know me, it doesnt matter if he doesnt know i sacrificed for him. as long as he's still fine and happy it's good enough for me.', would you?i doubt that anyone would actually go that far either, but maybe somewhere in this site someone really really is willing to go that far for a jrocker or smth. and if there really was such a person, i dont think she would come here to comment and tell everyone how much she loves _______, coz i think she would rather keep it to herself instead. and loving someone isnt about telling everyone how much you love ______ and showing how great and invincible your love is, right?aha. i beat you at ranting >D i think that i will be chased by some crazy fangirls with vegetable choppers because i insulted their love for _______. D: [um in case you get confused, this is an alternating composition of 2 ppl's many forum posts, if u get what i mean. no, dont ask me. im just copying *continues to copy*] And marriage really is just something you do just to do it. To most people it doesn't have any special meaning. But it kinda doesn't. Just cause you marry someone, it doesn't make anything more certain.Maybe there are one or two person that actually would sacrifice everything so that person would be safe. Even if they had no idea who the hell you are. Or never got to know what you did. But in the end, what do you actually know about him? He is in a famous band. All you know is probably what you've read in interviews, watched on DVD's, lives, tours and so on. (Unless you're a stalker ) Perhaps you like the person so much then for no reason, but what if he is nothing like you think at all? So in the end, you don't actually know anything important. So that love is pretty much more like a fake thing. It is not something that can ever be anything. And after a while. As you grow older. You find new obsessions. Other people to look up to and like. I agree. Loving someone is certainly not about telling everyone else how much you love them or how 'invincible' your love is. That is why marriage is useless. If you know you love ___ and ____ loves you, why the hell do you need to marry? As long as you know it, then isn't that good enough? Marriage is just an ancient tradition. [and it goes on ** yea u noe what goes into the space btwn the asterisks]

oh it's over XD they decided they were straying too far away from the topic...and the next post is really funny but it doesnt explain love so YOU'RE NOT GETTING ANY OF IT XD go google it if you wan.

Do you enjoy going to school?
What do you think? o.0 *raises eyebrows*

What would you do with a billion dollars?
i will...bank it in....the bank...?! and i will get the bank to give me my billion dollars all in $2 notes so that i can have a money bath. wait. no. and leave about $40+ unchanged so i can buy my Naked Love and perhaps still have some money for cookies? :3

Would you fall in love with your best friend?
im thinking: philo passage. but really, i dont think you get my train of thoughts. i dont get it either. maybe i was staring at the word "love" and thinking of the composed forum essay above...and thinking about philo passages at the same time...you know that kind of "what do u get when u cross a turtle and a chicken" kind of idea...

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
haha. haha. blessed --> quality of mercy --> MoV --> omg i really died for it --> where am i trailing off to? --> argh my MoV essay was really bad --> philo essay...how was it? --> philo passage. i finally managed to get my train of thoughts down ._. urgh.

List out your current 10 favourite songs.
Are you trying to kill me? no i will NOT be rating songs thankews bb. oh wait. i still have more questions...argh darn ==

If the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
nothing. WHY? are you sadist? are u wishing that i would do something DRASTIC. N-O. NO! Go jump down the building yourself if u wan see something drastic. if you're scared you could always jump down a bouncy castle (is that what you call it...? i kinda forgot)

Is there anything which has made you extremely happy?
um. playing Wii in the Melbourne airport? i was happy. not really extremely. OH. i rember nao. when i saw Nightmare's new look i went bonkers :S i was....ok nvm == that was just a moment of madness D: ignore me

List the artists you listen to.
Are you trying to kill me? do you want me to leave this quiz dead? RAWR.

How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
I wont even leave this quiz alive == dont remind me .-. but if i do, then we'll just wait and see what happens 10 yrs later.

What is currently the most important thing to you?
Learning Cassis on the piano. i reached a pathetic grand total of 2 pages. which, i gladly say, is one-fourth of the whole damn thing .__x

What is the kind of person you think who tagged you is?
what if i wasnt tagged? WHAT IF I DID THIS VOLUNTARILY because i was bored? lols ==

Would you rather have a rich but ugly husband or poor but handsome husband?
um. im not going to get one? and i think u forgot something....you forgot pervy XD but then if liddat how to phrase? :S

What are your favourite colours?
everything except everything pink

Would you give all in your relationship?
um. define all --> philo --> philo passage. another recorded train of thought for you :3

If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
are u trying to curse me or smth? NO i wouldnt.

Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
well. it's hard to explain. lets just say i suffer from stml (short term memory loss. at times, it becomes complete memory loss). you can go figure out the rest of the logic yourself. oh lol philo passage!

Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
OMG ALMOST DONE 8DDD anw...i had a rubbish answer....where did it go...?!?! D:

5 ppl to tag
YAY are we done? omg im skipping this question so i can get out alive! 8D

haha. haha. haha. == okay that wasnt very funny T.T i wan more onion head emoticons >.< lol

and btw i will be gone for a month so yea. will miss...um i dunno what >.>

SCAM

2008-11-04T18:49:00.005+08:00

i bluffed my maple fren SO BADLY. yea i was kinda bad at it >.> but really, SO OBVIOUS. who wouldnt get suspicious?

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old
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oso pei hor
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ur grandma ?
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20+?
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20 to 22
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lolz
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see where
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my cousin quite cute
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how old ?
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20
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got pic
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blue de
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wah
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style ah
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picture/
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u on at 8pm a not
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nope
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bb

sien la lag so bad. i wanna bluff thefter later so funny XD at least bluff thefter can involve yeqi oso. i think part 2 coming. i will edit ltr to insert the picture parts

stupid school invasion

2008-10-30T23:15:00.004+08:00

it was like some whole school thing. everyone gather in the hall to hear some dunno what 987fm rock band perform some crap songs....ENGLISH ROCKS SONG urgh. it was SO LOUD esp the drums...killing me, could hardly hear the bass. i think my ears are dyingly-dead-deaf. not like they were very good either.

luckily we were in the gallery :3 up there seeing those crazy sec 4s jumping up and down in front of the stage...in this big squished crowd, trying to climb up the stage...looks scarier than a GazettE live D: creeps. and liting was inside. no surprise though. uh. as in the FPS senior liting. not the mouse one 8D and omg a teacher was in the crowd jumping/waving/being hyper too! D: weird nyan~

the first band...was bad. really. didnt know what they were singing, their vocalist = guitarist (i think. or bassist. smth liddat). vocalist too tall as usual o.0 lol vocalists should either be 155 or 162......haha == totally brutal murder to my ears. urgh. i wonder which crazy teacher organised this. and yesh. they had a lousy drummer...everyone like very stone liddat. no wide range of werid actions D:

the second bad was MUCH better. their front fangirl crowd got bigger but i still couldnt hear wad they were singing. it killed my ears worse, i guess, but visual was better? they had a vocalist vocalist. not a guitarist vocalist. lol. and they had no wide range of actions but at least they had...HEADBANGING!!! hahaha. hmmm i currently CANNOT find the Light headbanging icon thingy...twas VERY funny lols. it looked more like the Yagami rape face though D:

so...HEADBANGING IS COOL. BANGING YOUR HEAD AGAINST AIR IS GOOD. at least it's better than the floor. lol == so nao, WATCH THIS VIDEO WITHOUT SOUND! coz you will probably die from the...um...noise T.T

i wonder if it works. IF you're really gonna watch it, see the headbanging parts...not the random old man...lols ==

and an example of "wide range of actions" watch this. maybe you dowanna on the sound either, but this is safer -.-

ok maybe not o.0 there are too many close ups of Yomi's face...which is not under the category of "wide range of actions" D: but then hor, you go see the drummer. then u compare with the first band de stone stone drummer guy. the stone guy must learn from the drummer. must at least look idiotic when u drumming or something. and it's good to jump around too. like around = in circles. lol. jumping makes you taller.

nao i feel like in a happy tree friends mood! haha! *goes to watch htf*

ahh lol im in such a youtube mood nao D: i shall run from here...

btw joy ran away from the hall...so good. i would have ran away too, if i didnt keep thinking that Ms Ong was still there and hasnt left kinda thing D< rawr.

Aust was fun

2008-10-23T22:49:00.005+08:00

long time no post. VERY long time no post. and VERY lazy to post D: still don't feel like it. what with ameba and lj. urgh. well. SO. Australia was fun. nothing much to report actually. Just that the broadway musical Wicked was damn cool. the high singing parts were ear-straining though.

"ear-straining" reminds me of extendable ears .-.

i think i'm addicted to Cassis. i think. i cant stop listening to it D: grah.

well well. look here:

look :3 Nightmare poster that was JUST given to me today XD me ish happie thankews. the space btwn Ruka and Hitsugi is a bit...bright n flash-ish. but then now you see the poster...

NOW YOU SEE ANOTHER ONE. yes. if you were to remove the Maple poster (Hemin gave this one! it rocks yea?) you would see the Nightmare poster behind. wanna try? :3 well, the Maple poster looks more epic though...hehe. but taken with my hp, so lousy quality D:

sleep >.<

2008-09-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

omg from my lj == so lame copy here copy there so pointless.

i cannot belif myself. i slept!!! SO MUCH!!! i went to skool. then i lay on my table and slept until the singing anthem time. i got up. dowsily mouthed words (i got a sore throat D:) and then went back to sleep == and omg when did i wake up? DURING CHINESE LESSON wtf. a BIG part of chinese had already passed D: it was like more than half an hour into the lesson? i dunno oso.

i didnt even realise the tchr entered. and i didnt greet her. and i didnt know what happened. and NO ONE said anything to me D:Maybe someone did say something to wake me up, but as usual i didnt hear or smth. the teacher didnt even say anything to me D: i feel....a bit...zz? but really, i cant belif myself. im supposed to be not like to sleep. grahh. must have watched too much htf last nite or something T.T

urgh. the Lost in Blue pv is so......COOL! 8D lols Yomi's face up close. heh. the lying in the coffin part was amusing :D (have i sed these b4? i seem to haved *checks blog* omg I HAVE D: getting senile ==) lols coffin. coffin. coffin, im reminded of my sore throat D: and then my need for caramel frappucino T_T eeek.

my mum is bck with pepsi. and burger. and mashed potato D: i wanna eat T-T ouchh-- i wonder if pepsi and salt werks. eeek i cannot eat the burger D: *cries*

omg i still got so much werk to do. i think im going to die trying to revise. esp malay tested on everything in this year. and math omg EVERYTHING SINCE LAST YEAR. i totally didnt pay attention last year T.T grah.

i think i shall disappear from some places temporarily to meet my studying requirements. i should start with history and geog. and a bit of malay. then heck care math and science. Mr Lau sez theres no need to study for science....D: scaree. i hate this sore throat D: Draco Malfoy is NOT GOOD.

shall go eat my whipped potato.

fun fun and more fun

2008-09-25T21:35:00.003+08:00

so sad we won't get to see shiyun for a very long time. shall go add her on gmail chat :D *adds* anyway build a bear day (yesterday) was super fun.

Shiyun arrived late though D: at about 4pm? and we (jj, clare, joy, me) were D< we had a short meeting, then we went to plaza sing with cas, liting, mio, sherlyn. first we went bear building! we had to pull Shiyun into the shop. ==

basically, shiyun got a turtle called Dr Blink and it costed $67.80. $8.50 per person. i think joy made a few cents profit == shiyun was OVERWHELMED by the extent of childishness. and she was like "NOOOOOOOOOO" and hiding her face while we forced her to go thru all the steps in the bear making. including the bear pledge, WHICH, i really have to admit, is too overdone.

we chose 2 sounds for her turtle! one on each hand. one is this maniacal giggle/laffing that sounds like us D: the other is this "whassup?" thingo. very cute :D i wonder what happens when run out of battery T.T then we forced shiyun to fill it up :D we took pictures of her while she stepped on the pedal == and she was: D: i have never thought that i would one day be like that kinda look. Dr Blink got a heart too :3

then Dr Blink was put in the airbath. shiyun stepped the pedal and the machine thing went "veeeeeeeeooooorrrrhrhhrhr" and shiyun went "ah". she was forced to bathe it. so she took the scrub thing and swished Dr Blink's stomach once XD then we got clothes.

THERE WERE BOXERS omfg. so cute de boxers. at first we wanted boxers only. then we saw the whole surgeon suit so we got it. some of us helped Dr Blink put on the costume thingy. and i think shiyun did the last part = the mask :D

then we went to print the certificate....and decided for a VERY VERY VERY long time what to call the turtle. and the program had this weird teddy picture on a chair and BLINKING. and shiyun said: hey that blinking bear so cute. so we called her turtle Dr Blink XP

then there was the bear pledge. heehee. that was SO SO SO SO farnee. shiyun was trying to make herself not seen or smth...i guess she didnt want to be spotted being not her age...XD

and then Dr Blink got put in a "house". then we went pastamania to eat. i ated garlic bread and a 7inch hawaiian pizza! twas so nice <3 yummy! then jj left coz she need to. we (clare, joy, me) decided to get a present for shiyun in daiso :D so we faked that we 3 needed to go toilet, and we went daiso instead.

we bot this round pink box, a prickly-starry-colourful-shiny-long garland, a small toy bunny and a small toy carrot. we put the bunny+carrot in the box while i held the garland. and so joy went back first to tell shiyun i was stuck in the toilet with a stomachache and clare was wif me XD

and so i crept up on shiyun awhile later...AND PLOPPED THE GARLAND AROUND HER! she was a bit shocked. then clare gave her the box. shiyun didnt dare to open it XP she facxed it towards joy and opened it. she only looked at it when cas said it was OK to see ==

then she saw. the bunny and the carrot XD lying around like in a coffin D: and after that i squished the garland inside the box too == IT FITTED KAES. so fun. but so sad D:

and today, our class introduced ms ong to happy tree friends during english. she came back during lit with this big smile on her face and said she went to see, and realised it was similar to something she played when she was in school....with the what clicking buttons and the hamster(?) in the blender.

you press "1" the hamster runs round happily. "2" the hamster gets slightly CORNfused. "3" the hamster is blended, and eyeballs pop/roll/whatever out. and she was SMILING SO HAPPILY when she told us :D Ms ong likes happy tree friends! i didnt noe she was so sadistic XD and she even said: "when im sadistic, i'll go watch the happy tree things." 8D yay for Ms Ong XD

ooooh plus i just got my lost in blue :D so cool de pv. lols Yomi's face up close == oh and the dying people and the farnee pouring wine into the coffin thingum <3

not thinking D:

2008-09-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

i realised. i don't think before i talk.

even when i think(before i talk, including in chatting places e.g. MSN, maple, whatever), im thinking ABSTRACT thoughts. nothing seems to be put in words, no language AT ALL. it's just this blob of thingy that forms in my mind and blurts out automatically as words.

so weird.

and when i have this word i not know, i will leave blank. then i will think again, WITHOUT LANGUAGE, with the same abstract blobs of nothing. and then i will fill in the blank when the nothing has taken shape.

haha. i want my Lost in Blue

hmm build-a-bear day is tmr, but i cant seem to find the finances to contribute to the building of the bear, and dinner, and also paying liting $8 from the USA trip D:

I (must) LOVE DEBT.

but that doesnt stop me from hating the stax of readings D:

THE meme

2008-09-23T17:48:00.003+08:00

lols i marvel at how it passes around....i checked the mail i got the first sender (of my chain of fwding) was rachel lim o.0

Heres the thingo 8D
1. Yeqi, Delia, Clarisse, a thousand other ppl but definitely NOT ME :D:
2. Jingjie, LT, Clare, CJ, etc (uh...all the tao nan ppl ==)
3. Yeqi. and Jingjie omg i dont get how she can get so many new swords at one go!
4. ...not that i know of...
5. ...my brain is not working today D:...oh i know JING HAN XD
6. me o//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////0(wooooo extendableeeee :D) and yeqi. and clare. and MMT (lol)
7. how about ALWAYS popular? hmm...JJ, LT, Clare, Yeqi. in other words, all my bestest friends D:
8. Keer. i tried that b4 ._. in primary school ==
9. i would like to stay up all night mapling...so yeah1 party members at mong will be nice to talk to :3 (if i knew jap[IF...but impossible ==]Yomi would be nice to talk to too :3)
10. how would i know? no one has children yet o.0
11. ehh...Yeqi?
12. ehh...Yeqi? (that was INTENTIONAL repetition, but both were typed out. there was NO copy and paste involved [i should have, but was too stupid to do so])
13. LT. she seems like Mr Bean the second
14. Dawn(you can tell from her liking pink);zhangxue(uh you can tell from her...magazines?)/Xinyuan
15. Xinyuan (hahahahahaha im so evil D:)
16. Yeqi ._. oh and i bet Joy is too XD
17. ME (totally. i dont even rember myself being serious wtf. even LT has moments being serious)
18. ******(a very spoilt one indeed. doesnt even look pretty[hmm u might not know her but still, no names for u XD])/*****(another spoilt one. doesnt even want to sit on the [dirty] floor. and looks ano...not like the floor's gonna kill you)
19. Jingjie. She actually is FAR from capable. saying that she's capable is too belittling her D: too good for her own good le
20. in fact, im so not serious that i havent sought to find different ppls' view on life ==
21. me. and clare :D
22. uh i dont think i know anyone liddat...i think...
23. Ms (Sharon) Ong D:
24. Me (Me to myself: uh yes, if you're not careful i'll kill you. Myself to me: don't kill me D: coz that would be suicide! Me to myself: hmm good point >.<); Ms Ong (where not careful = forgetting to do/bring something/being irresponsible/being not good in her class)
25. uh. SELENESAY omg ==
26. The fact is i cant ==
27. i cant think of anyone. except MEEEE (maple forever <3, etc)
28. Yeqi. she's the only person whom i can think of who would look good in cosplay. i would faint if i saw anyone else....eh....urgh.
29. YOMI! :D coz right, i would get to go to Disneysea, if not, Disneyland :D then right after that if i go to his house....MORE FUN NIA! omgomg. i might get to play Nintendo Wii!!! 8D I wan a Wii too D: It looks so fun
30. FOR EVERYONE...INDIVIDUALLY:
Yeqi: im really sorry if im really irritating but FACE IT. thats just me.
Delia: um. hi?
Clarisse: YEA LETS WATCH HAPPY TREE FRIENDS. now. NOW!!!
Jingjie: T.T im not emo
LT: national corn day is on 28th of January. do rember :3
CJ: uh...yay FPSP?
Joy: I hope MMT doesnt switch you with Christabel
Jing Han: oh mian are we doing addendum soon?
MMT: HI! QUICK GIVE US MORE RESEARCH STUFF!
Ms Ong: ...I BROUGHT MY MoV TODAY KAES?!?! IM NOT GUILTY!!!!
Keer: hi. where did u get the wooden cat?
Party members: omg i DIED AGAIN == i gtg le buaiis D: thx for pt *logs off*
Yomi: (there are a thousands things to say, but anyway) HI. i got a thousand and millions of things to say to you, but i wan ~~a hug~~ a NINTENDO WII first :3
Dawn: ...would you like to give me some money? $w$...
Zhang Xue: lets bet on Cheryl again!
Xinyuan: hope you get in for scenario writing next year...?!?!?!
******: shaddap. forever.
*****: -(message censored)-
Selene Say: -...-

uh. today MY(tts her initials ._.) and Jan were walking together...with me...and i asked....
Me: How tall are you?
Jan: 171
Me: Wah. MY leh?
MY: im 171 too
Me: omg you're 1712? omg you're 1.7km
Jan: woah. *backs off*
MY: muahahaha. this building wouldnt be able to fit me!!!! 8D
Jan: *looks at ceiling* o.0

then MY started telling really lame jokes :D but at least it was funny lols. i mean, at least one of them was ._. heh.

gawd. i took the whole chunk off LJ and edited/censored a bit here and there. lols. oh. i didnt include the part about the yawning penguin, coz it wouldnt make sense in blogger ._.

love my new skin

2008-09-21T22:42:00.003+08:00

woots i love my new blogskin, though it IS quite hard to see the words. i shall make them bwigger :D i wont be putting this on blogskins.com, coz i guess i can use it FOREVER. there are so many fun things to click! :D

i shall add on to the content :D so cool :3 i cant help but love and hate the cash shop 8D

D: i cant open that website. the wad third world network thing. it was ok yesterday D: it's quite a good website and has LOTS of good articles in it. and i only have less than half of what i can use D: sad T.T

==

2008-09-20T00:46:00.002+08:00

blogger has gotten some dates wrong ._.

DDDD:

2008-09-20T00:42:00.001+08:00

i am NOT emo D: a blog is not a representative of a person, and neither is appearances (lol appearance vs reality OHNOES i has not studied for the next lit quiz yet D:)

and i SUDDENLY (:O) decided not to change back to the previous blogskin. as in. i wanted to change the background....you know....the lines of text....then i realised....it was really complicated.....and i didnt have the original photoshop version with all the layers....SO....LETS HAVE A MAPLE BLOGSKIN INSTEAD. when i have gotten out of my constant state of laziness

urgh! CmPS ppt thingo urgh! i dunno how to write the script D: how are u supposed to present the whole chunk of the area of CORNcern when its so tediously cheem and hard to read D: it will sound unnatural. but im too lazy to summarize the thing twice (once for the ppt, other for saying)

LAZINESS CATCHES UP. now im lazy to sleep. isnt it nice to sit on a chair staring into nowhere, doing nothing but stare? oh and happy tree friends is fun.ny.

i cannot belif myself at lvl 120 now. i used to be able to imagine the huge spamming of genesis and mp pots and the waste of money...but now, i cant even imagine myself at lvl 102. not even at this same lvl de 50% D: big degradation

oh yes and im so hyappeier! HEMIN GAVE ME A MAPLE POSTER :D It's DOUBLE-SIDED so cool rite? :D its so cute! and i just realised gm's were invisible to themselves...except for the dot in the minimap == or can they toggle btwn invisible, semi-invisible and visible? urgh. if they're REALLY invisible, HOW DO THEY SEE THEMSELVES? they wont know where they're walking and they might die and lose their exp(yes gms have exp. i think ._.) heh.

this is long. i wonder why im not lazy to blog. i should stop myself. now. now. maybe later. like a second. i mean. NOW. rawr.

i should be more self conscious

2008-09-19T00:44:00.003+08:00

it that how you spell conscious? D: crap i cant spell D:

omg research sux

2008-09-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

omg im like mass researching for debt in developing countries. i've totally gone crazy. i suddenly found a lot of helpful sites omg? and im like @w@ coz i cant finish everything by wednesday D: omg theres really SO MUCH i dont even think i can get it done by the end of the competition o.0

geez and theres so much research...i must start listing problems and solutions....but THERE ARE NONE D:

oh mian i hate spiders.

oh mian that was so random. yay friday is slack day <3 not many proper lessons. i hate cooking == i feel random. so i shall continue research till i crack. and i will crack when i find someone to crack on ._x owwch.

:D

2008-09-18T00:24:00.001+08:00

yays. 17 sept 08 is Lost in Blue Release Day. It's coming! :D <3>.<)

2008-09-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

What is your demon type?

FALLEN ANGEL
Formally a servant in the kingdom of heaven, your search for answers beyond your conventional teachings has brought onto you a loss of innocence. enlightened, you strike back and defect, turning your white wings black in exchange for moral freedom. your thirst for individuality and power is what drives you most. your motto: "better to reign in hell than to serve in heaven". remember, black is not a color of evil,but a color of protection...you are probably hard to get close to.

How do you compare?
Take this test! Tests from Testriffic

oh mian fallen angel is so creepy D:

D: scrooed up

2008-09-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

D: this is bad. actually. i got quite ok for lit quote recital la. not as bad as i imagined, just that i was too soft D: RAWR

And Ms Ong wasn't that bad...her grading was actually quite ok and possible to get full marks. uh...just that i wasn't lovesick enough. how could i be....Portia's extent of lovey-dovey-ness is uncomparable....and i didnt pronounce "presage" rightly. i still wonder how to pronounce it o.0

argh i feel a bit...sot...i feel like making those one word/sentence entries, and SPAMMING them. lols.

haha. today is LKY's bdae and we sang a bdae song for him in class. i hope his heart is ok....coz SG still needs him around! 8D (that sounds so bad and selfish). but im sure he feels the same way too lol.

arrrgghrgrhgrhghrghrghrgrhgaarhghrargh LOST IN BLUE <3

oh and i got this really cute wooden cat-model-toy-thing from my fren <3 its so cute! it can do so many actions and weird positions(including split....aww mian it pwns me at scissors paper stone D:) but my point was: IT'S SO CUTE!

one day i shall post pictures of the many poses it can do

MOAR GOPED QUIZZES

2008-09-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

W O U L D. Y O U . R A T H E R.
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? MY EYE like yeah right == DIGDIGDIG
2. Be serious or be funny? Nonsensy. Do not assume that nonsensy=farnee, because farnee is SUBJECTIVE.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Condensed milk ==
4. Die in a fire or drown? How about a peaceful death. like sleeping pills or something?
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? hoho. I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO INFER YOU EVIL QUIZ!!! muahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.
1. Flowers or candy? CANDY OF COURSE. candy is good coz it keeps you HIGHHIGHHIGHHIGHHIGHHIGH unless you're like L or something.
2. Grey or black? black :D
3. Color or Black and white photos? Colour, not color. imma NOT american thankew.
4. Lust or love? love MAPLE <3
5. Sunrise or sunset? lets not have the sun. the night is fine enough. coz i like lights ==
6. M&Ms or Skittles? both. NO. M&Ms RULE MORE THAN SKITTLES(sorry L, but i side with Mello on this matter >D)
7. Cool partner who doesnt talk much or geeky partner who talks alot? please define cool and geeky and partner. they may have multiple meanings.
8. Staying up late or gettin up early? staying up late...or how about not sleeping at all!?!?!?!??? :D
A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y
1. Are you crushing on anyone right now? imma not THAT fat. i swear that the chair imma sitting on now is heavier than me. i doubt a can crush anything. except paper and lumps of sugar.
2. Do they know it? ask the paper and sugar. IMMA SURE THEY WILL BE HAPPY TO ANSWER YOU
D O . Y O U . P R E F E R.
1. Sun or moon? moon. coz as i said just now, night is fine enough. and the moon gives us mooncakes lol
2. Winter or Autumn? Autumn coz it's so pretty with all the red-orange-yellow maple leaves and it rains and....it's just fun ==
3. Left or right? wrong XD
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? best frens :D coz they're duh best yeah1 :D
5. Sunny or rainy? MOONY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? cookies and cream :D
A B O U T . Y O U
1. What time is it? how is this related to "about me"?
2. First Name? wad if i has none?
4. What is your birth date? 29 JUNE :D
5. What do you want? a blade staff D: it's so ex T.T
6. Nervous habit: cracking fingers(and thumbs) lols. actually i do that when im bored too ==
7. Are you double jointed? no. i apparently have more than 2 joints in my body thankew.
8. Can you roll your tongue? YES MIAN >D I BET U CANT =P
9. Can you raise one eyebrow? o.0 eh?
10. Can you cross your eyes? with the help of smth?
R A N D O M
1. Did you ever lie to avoid going out with someone? OMG HOW DO U KNOW? are u a STALKER? ==
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? eh omg i really suspect u ARE a STALKER!!!!!!!!!!!! oh and if u didnt noe, i throw all kinds of things XD
3. What was the oldest someone thought you were? sec3 ==
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? EWWWW i DO NOT eat spaghetti. it sux D< ok maybe u're not a stalker....?!?!?!
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? no but i think clare has some?
3. What's your favorite non-alcohal drink? i dont really like drinking ==

ehh. and the jrock hate meme is so amusing. uh. so far i havent seen anything abt nightmare. except the i hate hitsugi thing o.0 it's so farnee. one of them was: "stop pretending to be asian and adapt a name u can actually pronounce correctly" thats SO true...and i AM asian. and btw, theres smth with it too. ASIA IS NOT ONLY JAPAN wtf. DON'T FORGET SINGAPORE and CHINA. AND YES FACE IT u cant speak jap. neither can i. but YOU CANT SPEAK CHINESE AND I CAN muahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

that was so...lame ==

seeing the hate meme make me feel GREAT yeah1 coz its expressing ALL that i want to say without putting dirty words in my mouth :D and gawd dont those fans have a life too? o.0 they're like...(wait imma in no position to say this. AT ALL ahem)

i should stop this post 8D i need to do FPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:

new blogskin :D

2008-09-12T03:12:00.002+08:00

i gots a new blogskin (duh u can see). its really simple looking and the colour combi is gross, but lets fix that later. i need to sleep D<

urgh. just printed 36 pages of FPS notes. GUESS WHAT? i finally love debt in developing countries...WHY? because of pandemic. D< we must win. work hard and work and learn to love debts...(uh sounds wrong. debts are not good...D:)
hmrrwrr. got lit pt back. scored quite badly. umm...nothing ._. haiz, blogger is SO much nicer than livejournal :D and wordpress. and xanga. and myspace. and yourspace and hisspace and whatnots. grah.
omg reading all that FPS notes by tmr @m@ gonna die D: hmm...quiz! :D (from ash's blog. i love koping/goping/wadever-ing)

#1 Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
to Mars. for mars bars :D *drools**stomach grumble audibly*

#2 What's your favourite thing to do?
laugh i guess?

#3 Do you think money can buy happiness?
yeah1. sometimes/most of the time depending on the person

#4 If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
first prize for FPS aust finals (getta go US leh)

#5 Things/people you can't live without?
Food. Maple. Cookie. Maple. Music. uh and laughing.

#6 What are you afraid to lose?
THAT SHINY AUSTRALIAN FINALS FIRST PRIZE

#7 If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do?
thats not bad. lets eat sushi everyday. and maybe chicken rice and swensens. and cookies. and mars bars. and i would buy all the 金庸武侠片 and be happy lols

#8 What do you dream of doing in the future?
a (plastic) surgeon :D CUTCUTCUT 8D (as in i cut plastic. i am NOT and will NOT be plastic)

#9 List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
-she didnt give it to me
-i stole it from her
-but anyway shes nice to poke XD

#10 What makes you happy?
Maple 8D

#11 What type of person do you hate the most?
eh. irritating egoistical haolian freaks >.<

#12 If you have a super power what would it be?
ooh. 独孤九剑 :D i wan =3

#13 Would you go for happiness or money?
money. coz $ --> maple --> happy :D

#14 Who do you think is the most important people in your life?
Friends. And parents. And the person singing the song i hear LOL whoever it is ;)

#15 If you have a girlfriend, would you die for her?
ehh...dont assume the whole world is boys....OMG GENDER DISCRIMINATION! BIGOTRY! ASDFFGASDFDSG!!!!!!!!!!!

#16 Who's the last person who hugged you?
ehhs. my tofu <3

#17 What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
GO TO AUSTRALIA AND GET THAT GOLD D:

#18 Who are you close to?
everyone in Singapore! SG is so small, u r literally (staying) close to everyone here!

#19 Are you courageous enough to tell person that you like her/him?
"HI QUIZ YOU'RE A GREAT FRIEND! I LOVE YOU!(not == quizzes were one of those stupid irritating egoistical haolian things in the first place)

#20 If you could do one thing all over again what would it be?
level 100 times again :D (smart answer eh?)

7 things that scare you:
- SSPPIIIDDDEEERRRRReeeeeeeeee
- Complexion (lols i meant complexity. aiya same thing la all mean complex[noun])
- Ms Ong ==
- OBS (omg syringes on the sand D:)
- not knowing how to spell syringe
- NOT GETTING THAT SHINY GOLD!!!!!!!!!! D: stop cursing myself =X
- dunno?

7 things that you like the most:
- Cookies
- wuxianess
- L
- Lays Chips
- MAPLE
- hng
- slacking

7 important things in my room:
ehh...is this my room?
- computer
- handphone
- internet (the annoying mio ==)
- shoxx =X
- some random thing ==
- another random thing ==
- eh? the ping pong ball? its nice and round and orange :D

7 random facts about me:
- I like debts
- I WANNN THAT GOLD D:
- Yomi is pervy (wait thats not about ME D<)
- look. im too random for your own good
- why dont you go away now
- BOO!!!SHOOO!!!
- You see me, Lord Bassanio, where i stand.....(and then i forgot MY QUOTE ong D:)

7 things I plan to do before i die:
- reach lvl 200
- wait havent i done such i question b4 long ago?
- omfg its 4am D:

7 things i cant do:
- sit on my own lap

7 things you are attracted to in the opposite sex:
shaddap i need to slp NOW

7 things i always say:
- it's 2am. i shall go sleep

7 people to do this questionnaire:
heck ==

OMG SO LATE LE =X i must as well not slp

Quiz :D

2008-09-10T20:15:00.002+08:00

a quiz a quiz a koped quiz :D

1. Name all the songs of your favourite band.
2. Put down the first word or thought that comes to your mind when you think of the song name.

13th - wad?
18 sai - lols hikaru no go ._.
36.7 degrees - lols that random pencil case shop...i think it was 37 degrees
akane - isnt that a girl's name?
alice - nine (lols)
alumina - fishbowls ._.
aquaria - aqua road :D
backstreet children - wad?
be buried - dead people are buried...?!?!
buildings roman - shouldnt it be roman buildings?
black sick spider - AHHH SPIDER!!!!!!!!111111
boys be suspicious - wads suspicious? D:
cloudy dayz - selene is getting a bit annoying D:
Crash! Nightmare Channel - its so cute :D
crevasse - reminds me of canvases(?) and corpses ==
criminal baby - some runaway baby in a black and white striped suit
dasei boogie - uh....the mikestand...and Yomi... D:
dirty - just dirty....?
dogma - wad?
esoragoto - escargots omg snails D:
flora - and fauna ==
fly me to the zenith - chang e flying to duh moon 8D
general - omg debt in developing countries D:
gianism go - omg i hate these
gianism hachi - they're like numbered
gianism roku - and i kinda suspect i dont have all of them
gianism san - and they have 1001 different spellings
gianism tsuu~shougai minagoroshi~ - and it totally scroos and confuses my list
hate - MoV D:
hoshi ni negai wo - wadwadwad?
ibushi (kuyuru) - oh and it reminds me...some songs have so many names i dont even know wad they're supposed to be called ==
itsuka no boku e - lols the WORLD haha and raito and his stupid big ambitions
jashin to bara - barang barang....somehow....lol...
jibun no hana - some random flower of time o.0
jishou(shonen terrorist) - ._.
jojou teki ni sugi ta jikan to fukakutei na mirai e no requiem - wow wad a long name
kabuki logic - how very logical
kadan - D: still at "k" only? D:
kimi to ita kisetsu - sincerely ever dream == i wonder how it relates, uh?
konoha - was it a single?
kyokutou ranshin tengoku - omg 三国演义 but it doesnt relate either D:
livEVIL - liveXevil yagamiXimagay lolXlol ==
loopain - uh zombie lupins...they're such a sore
love tripper - buzzers?
lulu - malu o.0
mahora - sounds like some red indian thingy o.0
m-aria - wads the dash doing there?
mary - the ppl in MoV say "Marry" all the time lols
mebius no yuutsu - !?!?!?
message - sms D:
mind ocean~wa yuki to tomo ni~ - 脑海 lols
morpho - the matrix...somehow
muzzle, muzzle, muzzle - weird name o.0
nadirecur - wad?
nazuki - o.0
neotenii - naruto(its not related but it just reminds me of naruto)
ochiwa - lols hikaru no go again ==
over - get over :D (lols more hikaru no go ==)
pandora - ('s) box
phantom - of the opera o.0
promenade - wad is that??!?!?!?!!!?
raison d'etre - some french raisins o.0
raven looud speeeaker - yay i finally rembered there were 3 "e"s
remembrance - omg im so nervous lit quiz+court case tmr D:
saiyuki - ?!!??!?!!??
sanagi - unagi :D
sekishoku - huh?
shian - light(as in the physics one D:)
shinjitsu no hana - im feeling unfunny thats why you're not seeing amusing answers D:
shunkashuuto - shokubutsu....lols maple
star [k]night - why is the k in brackets?
suna - lols errory MSN
the fool - the really short one ._.
the last show - hey what about the first?
the world - death note o.0
to for - huh?
tokyo shonen - neon lights
toroimerai - asdfasdkgh
travel - this caused me some trouble
trickstar - alumina ==
tsubasa o kudasai - eh? why do i think of vampire knight?
tsuki no hikari, utsutsu no yume - lols more raito ==
underdog - wasnt there some underdog movie?
varuna - isnt it the thing im wearing in maple now? that blue varuna or smth liddat....wait varuna is for guy or girl? D:
wasurenagusa - grass ._.
wasurenagusa ~K no souretsu~ - wads the difference with the one on top? but yeah1 actually they are different ==
white room - killershow
worst - case scenario
yasou kyoku - i am unable to think now
yuki sou - YES LAST ONE 8DDDD

i named them according to how they appear on my playlist...they might have different names and spelling somewhere else and NO i have not heard all of them ._. and i feel brain dead. lit quiz + lit court case tmr. i hate being portia asdfasdgfsdg i need a new blogskin asdfsgdfshd i need maple asdgfsdgdfg i hate my gold quote asdfsdkj i feel stressed D: omg and FPS im feeling dead. i wish i could just take a day off. and tmr will be perfect for taking the day off :D sadly i am unable to...so depressing Shiyun is leaving D:

ah.

2008-09-08T20:56:00.001+08:00

imma a bit overwhelmed by some peoples' stupidity and amazing annoying-ness.

but anyway, point one is: we got a new malay teacher in place of cikgu Roziyah who will teach us until exams D: EXAMS!?!?!?!? I mean like she treats us as if we were stupid noobs. rawr. I dont think i will do good for my exams >.<

but anyway, this month's Shoxx features Nightmare! 20 PAGES 8D plus got Sendai Kamotsu also yay so fun =P

grah. im so-wait. wad was i gonna say? D:

i cannot stand it!

2008-09-06T23:57:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really cant stand it. as in some ppl who points at some angmoh guy and says: "SO HOT AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!111111" and no, not just "so hot", it's CAPS including "AHHHHHHH". oh. especially those who point at the most boring book in the world and go: "EDWARD IS SO HOT! AHHHHHHHHHH!" ._. come on it's FICTIONAL. and is there a need to express so outwardly your deprivation....uh yeah.

erm. ya. i was going to say smth else. i forgot. OH. Mr Brown Show ping pong song so funny :D especially the music video...they were hypering or smth o.0 and i will never in my life want another dream about maple. It's too....nightmarish and freaky, especially the latest one.

haiz

2008-09-05T15:47:00.001+08:00

MIE IS HAPPIE ME GOT INTO AUSTRALIA FOR FPSP :DDD

but me feels bad coz methinks we would still get in with Cheryl *hits head against closet* but me should not be saying this coz it's unfair to jj D: *hits head against lamp* D: and me says: poor Cheryl coz i think CJ is going to quit FPSP and Cheryl wouldn't be able to do FPS and poor Cheryl D: me is also depressed because we got third in ranking.....(bad FLL's teams!).....i cannot believe it! D:< very bad of us to deproved so much! *hits head against wall coz me is obviously inferring smth bad again* feel so guilty haiz

uh yes and there is this skyhigh amount of MSN alerts saying: plonk has just signed in. eh poor LT must be something wrong with her com >.<

AND TALKING ABOUT CLOSETS...i had a dream about Nightmare (the band ._. but i had a real nightmare b4 that D:)and we were all playing 7 minutes in heaven....AND GUESS WHO I GOT? Sakito :D and this is the funnest thing ever asdasdfasdffsgvsdf we sat in the closet for 7 minutes playing scissors paper stone! plus of course i won XD oh and i had a funny dream last night about trapping MMT in the toilet ._. got a lot of details but i lazy to say ._.

faints from squished in overwork. i hate lit FA :@

quiz spam

2008-08-30T22:40:00.001+08:00

which member of nightmare are u?:

You're Yomi, the short vocalist. Full of energy and very perverted, you set the bands energy to the max...

eh...o.0 maybe it was like the death note quiz...the being unconditionally 100% L thing. it's called biasedness affecting inaccurate results T.T hey but i AM hyper (link: ohh look, like the L thing i put i like candy...so that's the cause...AND the Jack's place sugared water :D). and FINE i am short...but im not nice at all >D

which japanese name fits u most?:

Your Japanese name should be

'Katana'

which means "sword, blade".

You're like a fighter; bold and brave. You have a strong opinion and speak your mind. You always end up in some sort of conflict, maybe a contest or a discussion, because you go look for it. That's just how you are, I guess.

i think quizilla is funnily inaccurate XD

What Angel Are You?

Sea Angel
You are a water angel.You tend to me be prettist, and most calm one of the lot of us.You are also the one that shows themselves to humans, causeing the belief of Mermaids.Only wind can whip up your anger, and only you can douse the fires flame, but generally you get on with all of us.You loves, blues, greens and torquises and love to feel movement around you, you don't like it when everything goes silent and still because water is never still.

this is funner but still not real...

Which j-rocker are you destined for?

Ruki

omg! you got Ruki from "the gazettE" super drop-dead-gorgeous! I envy you!

hahahaha i am laughing very badly/goodly/loudly. lololololol. the description is so FARNEE hahaha but i dont agree to the super....gorgeous part i and dont see y u should envy me >D

What Anime TV Show Are You Destined To Be In?

Death Note♥

You are destined to be in death note! you are very smart and you will either bring people to justice or punish criminals for what they have done.. your choice

this was VERY biased too >D hahahaha it was all too obvious...lololol heart attacks and handy dandy NOTEBOOK and writing names in the notebook ==

J-rock heaven

Reita (gazette)

you are chilling on a hot summer day on a terras of a café (pub/bar/thea-room). you are eating ur favorite Ice cream. When al of the sudden Reita passes ur way. stops at ur table and says: "That looks like an very tasty ice cream, can I taste it?"

HAHAHAomg these quizzes are getting funnily out of hand!!!?!?!?!!!!!1111111????????////// HAHAHAHA funny ICE CREAM?!?!?!?!?1/1/1/1/1/1?!?!?!?!? lololololololol i cannot describe the extent of laughter now HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA lololololololololololololololololol HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Which Death Note Character Are You?

You're smart. REALLY smart. And you have an addiction to all sweet and sugary things. Make sure you bring justice to those bad guys!

the usual biased thingums in action o.0

rawr too lazy to do le. sad no wuxia quiz n no hng quiz i havent done D: and i did some quizzes by putting weird answers i would nvr say >D and i got rly funny answers. gah i laughed the whole time now the need to maple is not as much le. but im still doing personal expo research VERY SLOWLY

OMG

2008-08-24T17:12:00.002+08:00

oh mai ytd Imjustakid (more like ImJESSakid) reached lvl 200...just as i went online. dont ask me wad i was doing there when i should be revising and stuff. zzz. ANYWAY, yea...i think kid is supposed to be jessbunny's bro? but she probably took over it....like DUH and OMG her second lvl 200 account. she should get banned or she will suffer in future....SHE'S ONLY 19 YEARS OLD!!! but anyway still someone i look up to :D hahas....but im surely not wanting to fail everything except maple.

erhgh creeps sia. imagine, she could well be a zombie already D:

OH. and this creeps too. I have the same birthday and bloodtype and horoscope (duh) as Sakito o.0 brrr. creeps too >.< the next thing u know we gots the same zodiac too (most unlikely lols)

eh yay.....nothing ==

goped from my DA fren <3

2008-08-20T21:09:00.001+08:00

Light
[ ] You have a big aim in life
[x] You hate to lose
[ ] You feel that your eyes change colours with your behaviour
[x] You are obsessed.
[x] Your intelligence is superior in comparison with another people’ s one. (lols in pri sch math ==)
[ ] You don’t mind hurting others as long it helps you to get to your aims
[ ] You have talent to seduce the opposite gender
Total: 3/7
L
[x] You love candy
[x] You don’t care about how you look
[x] You walk/sit curvate
[x] You are a genius (self-proclaimed, sadly. and only at pri sch math ==)
[x] You have dark circles around your eyes (im very sure i will after i apply eyeliner....NOW....lol)
[x] You are very thin don’t matter what you eat
[x] You don’t have many friends and you are a total failure at love (not many, but they're the bestest ever :D)
Total: 7/7
Misa
[x] You love someone blindly
[ ] You would do everything for that ‘someone’
[x] You dress in a very peculiar way (because i dont care so i look weird ==)
[ ] You can’t tell when people are joking around with you
[ ] You can’t afford alcohol very well
[x] You are very jealous (yes SMELL THE VINEGAR)
[ ] You can make people do what they don’t want to.
Total: 3/7
Mello
[x] You love chocolate
[ ] You were confused at least for once with the opposite gender
[ ] You always dress dark and tight clothes
[ ] You are always the second (i wish la. not even the second lor)
[ ] You have a burnt/scar on your face
[x] You are very intelligent, but sometimes you make mistakes (yes. lost half a mark in pri sch math ==)
[ ] Near creeps you out a little bit
Total: 2/7
Matt
[x] You are always playing videogames (does maple count?)
[ ] You smoke
[ ] You wear streaky shirts (streaky sounds like freaky XD)
[x] You would do anything for your friends (since they're all the bestest :D)
[ ] You use glasses that looks like goggles.
[ ] You are always relaxed (like real)
[ ] You are very affected to your best friend
Total: 2/7
Near
[ ] You are patient to the limit
[ ] You always win
[x] You have the Peter Pan syndrome (quite obvious mentally and PHYSICALLY *ahem*)
[ ] You love to wear pajamas
[x] You are very intelligent (please refer to above about pri sch math ==)
[x] You have a lot of ability using your hands
[ ] Your hair is of a weird colour
Total: 3/7
Mikami
[ ] You believe in a god
[ ] You search for justice in everywhere
[x] You use glasses (duh. who doesn't?)
[ ] You are/want to be a lawyer
[ ] You don’t care about following orders as long as it’ s for justice’ s sake
[ ] You support Kira unconditionally
[ ] All your life is perfectly planned (i wish)
Total: 1/7
Ryuk
[ ] You love apples
[x] You are bored
[ ] You think that humans are… INTERESTING!
[ ] You laugh in a weird way… Hyuk, hyuk, hyuk…
[ ] When there’s an argument, you never take one of the sides
[x] You are a little bit crazy and weird (how about VERY)
Total: 2/7
Matsuda
[x] Some people think that you are an idiot (what about EVERYONE :D)
[ ] You always see someone’s good side
[ ] You know someone who is an example for you
[ ] You don’t think Kira is neither good or evil
[ ] You talk about a love life that you don’t have
[ ] You do stupid things that sometimes are good to the ones around you
[ ] You are pretty, but old.
Total: 1/7

Unconditionally L (how Lame. rawr dam his name it doesnt stand out [but it sure fits in most words])

stupid i got "y"

2008-08-20T20:39:00.001+08:00

Comment and I'll give you a letter, then make a list in your journal of all your favorite things that start with that letter. Then post this in your journal and give other people letters!

Y
1.Yomi (the only one i can think of. now.)
2.Yam cake (i am so pathetic i have to resort to such means of including something i HATE urgh)
3.Y....am I given the letter "Y"? (D: resorting to the lamest means)
4.Yacht (it's a nice word k D< it should sound like "york," said Ms Ong ._.
5.Yeqi (OMGOMG how could i have forgotten IM SO SORREE :D)
6.You (this is duh LAMEST ==)
7.Yeti (in el nath is so cute :D)
8.Yummy food (haha)
9.Yellow (waddle XD)
10.Yes (SAY YES TO MAPLE!!!)
11.YINYANGYO! (that was random but definitely NOT true)
12.Yamaha (pianos. heehee.)
13.Yaoi (omg wad is this nonsense im coming up with? I TOTALLY GIVE UP mrieow)
14.Yong Jun (裴勇俊 i tried to stuff him in just now but realised his surname started with "b" then i just realised i could have disincluded his surname)

OH MIAN i give up.

ANYWAYS. science was fun today :D we were doing blood splatter with red dye ("blood"). bad Mr Lau D: bluff us say is bandung. anyways someone *ahem* believed it was bandung, even after i tried few a times to tell her it was RED DYE. she realised only after she couldnt wash the colour off her hands. lols.

then after that we squirted red dye all over our hands and pretended that we were in some crime scene. and then i came up with this great idea coz i was really happy and i slit my wrists. "slit" my wrists. you know the if you're happy song?: If you're happy and you know it slit your wrists *slit**slit*

yups i used red dye and drew a line across my wrist. ~~cool~~ lame right? i was showing everyone and laughing my head off. and everyone was giving me diao face D: and the same someone wanted to try too. she laughed SO hard the red dye splotched all over her hand and she had "blood" in the wrong places >D haha so lame

oh oral. ORAL was epic phaiyl. very bad. we had some fun in the waiting room though. wait. it wasn't fun at all D< i flunked the whole thing badly D: rawr. im quite sure i have more to add but i kinda forgot D:

YES I JUST REMBERED. waiting room for oral was this class with a cardboard with picture of L and raito. L looked like a girl D< bad artist! but raito-kun looked very cute :D but still, i hate him >D anyways i spent the whole waiting time ogling at the picture EEEEK >.< raito's eyes are really pretty. only when he's not evil. sai's eyes are pretty too. that because both of them have same (almost) eyes. and the greatest reason is that TAKESHI OBATA DREW THEM!!! but anyways they're pretty (praises Mr Obata[uh wad a weird new name for him ==])

haha im such a lamer.

scary

2008-08-18T00:30:00.001+08:00

i saw such the scariest quiz. it tells me 3 ppl crushed me for 3 weeks IN MY SCHOOL omg i nearly died. luckily i was still surrounded by some fats and that prevented me from dying due to fractures of the bone etc >.<

this is freaky. PPL REMIND ME NOT TO DO ANYTHING SILLY ON APRIL 11, 2011 D: omg thats someone i know's birthday >.< you know, i could do smth silly before or after that but NOT ON THAT DAY PLS. i must prove this wrong >D uurrrgghh freaky D:

why is this place full of these stupid quizzes? if i die on 11 april 2011, nothing of the above will happen. and pls la, i got no high skool bf can a not? stupid....BUT NONETHELESS FARNEEEE!!! >D i love ">D"

right. i swear i saw this really fun quiz i planned to kope on DA, but i kinda lost it >.< i only rember one question, which is the create a band thingy (i forgot the word) using your name. since it was on DA, i shall use mah DA name:

Screw
Alice Nine (And Ayabie And An cafe >D lols)
Baroque
R......awr(cant think of any)[oh it could be Ruki, but this is like...BAND]
I....diot(i cant think again)[shyt Nightmare dont start with no "i" D:]
Envy
I...I....I think there was Iceman :D

Look, lets just be nice and add an extra "N" in mah name today.

Nightmare :D

hahas. that was awesomely lame =3= but do yeh detect some trend/pattern? No? well, you're not supposed to. Yes? well, you're still not supposed to ==

yay

2008-08-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

What Weapon Best Suits You?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Knife

You like to get up, close and dangerous. These things are easy to use and very deadly.

Knife

100%

Sub-machinegun

92%

Grenade

92%

Sniper Rifle

83%

Pistol

75%

Flamethrower

42%

None

33%

Shotgun

33%

Assault Rifle

33%

Sword

33%

fun quizzes are funner than fun >D

SOTA was rather cool but boring but near mah house :D heehee. and i knew i had something to sae 3 days ago. WHERE ID IT NAO? rawr. FPS results coming out soon. so scared >.< and china totally sucked tonight. HOW COULD THEY BEATED SG?!?!?! they could just be NICE and let us win >D haha but too bad for korea.....and japan's men's team >D lols, how did japan come in o.0 but anyways, OUR table tennis WAS WAY COOL. GOOD JOB TO SG'S 3 CHINA PPL. see. china is full of talents you idiot sg bananas. and i thought only malaysia had (proton) bananas D<

hehe banana phone ish farnee >.< pls stop me from digressing D: anyways...WE WEREWAY COOL TO WATCH >D hohoho

3rd post todae + quiz 83

2008-08-08T22:37:00.003+08:00

hahhaha bored ==

1) The person who tagged you is? Your relationship with him/her is?
Yeqi. One of the many idiots around me :D great fren, nonetheless, and sometimes irritating, no? (of course the answer is yes)

3) Your first impression of him/her is?
first impression was a guai quiet girl == uh, not very quiet, is you?

4) The most memorable thing he/she has done for you is?
too many o.0

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is ?
"In sooth I know not why i am so sad"

6) If he/she becomes your lover , you will ?
That's a gay thought. U is dismissed from the here now. NOW!

7) If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve at?
NE'ER HEAR ME SAE? U IS DISMISSED grah NOW!!!

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, what would you do ?
kill her. i kill all mah enemies

9) If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be ?
there is none coz it's not possible ==

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is ?
tell corny jokes :F

12) How do you think people around you will feel about you ?
very de sot and annoying(good :D) and blurts insults w/o thinking(yes i dont think)

13) The characteristic you love most about yourself is?
the disability to think.

14) On the contrary , the characteristic you hate most about yourself is ?
The disablity to do everything

15) The most ideal person you want to be is?
...o.0 a weirder me....WAIT NO OMG I WANNA BE 令狐冲 I WAN HIS 独孤九剑 OMG!!!

16) For people that care & like you, say something to them.
yer duh best yeah! THANKEW love you lots :D

17) Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you.
Yeqi
ANYONE WHO WANTS TO SAY ANYTHING ABT MOI :D *hinthint*anyonewhoseesthis*hint**cough*

whats with u ppl?

2008-08-08T22:06:00.001+08:00

whole lots of complaints >.< first YOU. wth i'm SO NOT pms-ing you idiot. i think YOU'RE talking abt yourself idiot. if there is no "m" how can there be pms, you idiot? without "m", pms would be "ps" which is from me to you IDIOT (p.s. PS = PLEASE SHUDDUP). yes shuddup if u don't know anything, idiot. it's best for you. zzz i feel so lame ==

NOW. i totally dont see the point of the twilight series. It's just another lame thing. and i dont see what's so hot about vampires. i mean like that's gross. like ice is even hotter than vampires. vampires are like - DEAD. dead people are supposed to be cold. i say, wouldnt be nice if: "so i herd u liek EDWARD" aha! that would be most suitable. remove the burden from mudkips! :D poor mudkips D: anyways, that series just the worst thing ever. zzz.

NOW again. wads that thing with low sox? i mean like (wait. lets stop using "mean". it makes me overly mean D: *lameness strikes again* anyways -) some people say that it's for even tan or something liddat. if so must as well go around barefooted. zzz. and fyi i DONT tan. i burn. YES BURN LIKE A BBQ CHICKEN. mmm they're yummy. just ated one that day. or rather the wing. it was honeyed :D BACK TO THE TOPIC hey i just realised how bad my distraction disorder is :D

AHEM. ya. about what? er...ya i dont tan. YESH AND IT'S NOT LIKE YOUR ANKLES ARE GOOD LOOKING so stop telling me that high sox r bad. stupid idiot. if i wanna look weird it's mah problem. and ppl dont get BOOKED for high sox. and those japanese wear REALLY HIGH sox too. in other words, i dont see the point of low sox. and i dont see how it's so good looking either. and it doesnt make you any cooler, you idiot. idiots arent cool in the first place. oh,and neither are they hot == i say: look at L. does he have low sox? NO (wait he doesnt wear sox in the first place ==). hmm. erm, aiya i lazy to give example le la. zzz. i shall go doodle *randomness and distraction disorder sets in again*

mega mega blastage of new items gained :D

2008-08-08T20:58:00.001+08:00

:DD <33

all that rubbishy stephanie meyer books lined so nicely in kino. bleah.

beams cheeckily hahas

mah dear blanc et noir <3 ;D

cover so pretty :D

there's death note drawings and hng oso :D so cool! <3

plus how to draw section ==

<3 loved :D lighting not very good though(for the pics) so a bit de not clear :D but hey this is so cute (lols):

goped quiz :D

2008-08-02T00:37:00.001+08:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 11.26 PM
Name: Yan Ling
Sisters: 0
Brothers: 1 (i wish uh lol actually nothing in this question is true ==)
Shoe size: 7
Height: not for you to know ;D

Where do you live: SG!!! <3
Favourite drinks: tea :D
Favourite breakfast: SCRAMBLED EGGS that look more like pepper <3
Have you ever been on a plane?: DUH idiot
Swam in the ocean: DUH. idiot
Fallen asleep at school: today.
Broken someone's heart: i break many i guess. imma clumsy person
Fell off your chair: Many a times u never saw
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: ya kino ==
Saved e-mails: ???? wtf !!!!
What is your room like: yellowish white
What's right beside you: i gots no bed
What is the last thing you ate: potato

Ever had chicken pox: yups
Sore throat: DUH.
Stitches: everytime i run
Broken nose: ouch

Do you believe in love at first sight: yes. i guess. ok maybe. wait. perhaps not.
Like picnics: yesh pls with ham ;D
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: i think it was dawn
Last made you smile: myself (spazing)
You last yelled at: SCOLDING YOU STUPID QUIZ
Today did you
Talk to someone you like: DUH. I like everyone i talk to (i dao my enemies ;))
Kiss anyone: urgh duh no
Get sick: I kinda was sick all along
Talk to an ex: an ex classmate? XD
Miss someone: MAPLE D:
Eat: duh == imma not ano. seriously
Best feeling in the world: HAPPYLIE SPAS or SPASLY HAPPY and being able to has very good 武功
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: My tofu 83
What's under your bed: !@#$%^ i got no bed stop linking mah curses!!!
Who do you really hate: oh man yes i hates LIGHT YAGAMI and some people i forgot totally about, i guess
What time is it now? Me: dun ask me, ask OCBC. OCBC: It's tiger time!

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: yep. maple
Do you have any siblings: 1 (corresponding to the 4th question, so that my fallacy is not broken)
Do you want children: DUH NO.
Do you smile often: everyday every second of mah life unless imma cold.
Do you like your hand-writing: no. who does except egoists
Are your toe nails painted: DUH NO.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: wtfs I GOTS NO BED IDIOT but it would be nice to sleep on a bed of tofus (eek so squishie :D)
What color shirt are you wearing now: pink OMG EWWW YUCK (i havent changed it for long time >.<)
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: sleeping ==
I can't wait till: FPS RESULTS OUT (omg wait im scared of that)
Are you a friendly person: perhaps. not. so. but yes. maybe.
Do you have any pets: nope -3-
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: DEAD muahahaha~ (sounds like i killed her/him)
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: i dun think i held a hand. at least i dun rember
Do you sleep with the TV on?: o.0
What are you doing right now?: typing this la DUH
Have you ever crawled through a window?: what about climb thru?
Can you handle the truth?: OUCH OUCH omg THE TRUTH IS SO HOT AND SCALDING omg IT JUST CAME OUT OF THE OVEN ouch i burnt myself ==
Are you too forgiving?: yup. maybe. perhaps. i guess so. maybe not oso.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: both i think.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: i forgot
How many people can you say you've really loved?: My bestest frens (not romantic love la) and maple and wuxia and my tofu. and fps and a thousand other things who are so great they can be said to be as great as people
Do you eat healthy?: No. i guess. too much carbo in the form of sugar. and chocolate. grah.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: YESH omg ex-classmates yes?
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: o.0
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: uh dunno. anyone, and end up being dao-ed i guess. so i just sit around and be cold.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: quiet. coz lessons happen.
Are you confident?: perhaps. not. yes. maybe. i guess. i think. probably. not?

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. ACT SPAS loloooolololoo (haha LOO)
4. Cry
5. Laugh

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. finish this stupid thing
2. Maple (which i probably wun get to)
3. finish my science report
4. Eat chicken rice
5. Draw

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Chipster hot and spicy
2. Lays/Jack and Jill/Calbee/Any tayto chips Barbeque (including teh one raito eats)
3. Sweets
4. Chocolate
5. omg yes SUGAR honey SALT pepper SOY SAUCE stock cubes SWEETENERS milo powder TISSUE PAPER sushi WASABI seaweed SEASONING sour stuff

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. GACHA LIKE HELL
2. Spend the money on eating.
3. be miserly
4. count money
5. NOT GO TO SKOOL YEA

5 of my bad habits:
1. being a little too violent
2. daydreaming
3. I HAVE HIGH LEVEL OF AHDH (is it that? some attention disorder la)
4. gets obsessed with everything nice
5. has bad habits

5 places I have lived in:
1. Singapore
2. Triceratan Island
3. Uranus
4. Your heart (i was trying to break it)
5. Your brain (heart breaking failed so i moved on to the brain)

5 jobs I've had:
1. Student
2. Mapler
3. Guild JR
4. SOMEONE'S Unfriend (ahem cough coughkimahem cough)
5. DeviantArtist (i kinda ran out of things to say and suddenly i was like omfg i has many an occupation wtfz

kopes and 201st post an serious ADHD

2008-07-27T09:47:00.002+08:00

You scored a total of 74
It is highly likely that you are presently suffering from adult attention deficit disorder, according to your responses on this self-report questionnaire. You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort, or a recommendation for treatment. However, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek further diagnosis from a trained mental health professional immediately.

S C O R I N G K E Y
If you scored...
You may have...
70 & up50 - 6935 - 4925 - 340 - 24
Adult ADHD Moderate ADHD Mild ADHD Borderline ADHD No ADHD likely

haahahahaha lols i rox :D

Where is your cell phone?- beside me

Your girlfriend/boyfriend?- lots of friends who are girls. and not as many friends who are boys.

Your hair?- tied?

Where is your father?- sleeping

What is your favorite thing to do?- MAPLE or draw

Your dream last night?- I have none :D

Your favorite drink?- erm...tea?

Your car?- i forgot

The room you're in?- has my computer 83

Google or Yahoo?- Google

Your friends?- many

Where did you grow up?- Singapore :D

The last thing you did?- type this

What you are wearing?- PINK (yuck :/)

Text or Call?- Text

Ketchup?- BBQ sauce

Your computer?- has maple and DA

Your life?- MAPLEdeviantartWUXIAkoreandramaCOOKIES

Your mood?- VERY HYPER

Missing who?- erm. maple.

Your Summer?- i have none

When is the last time you laughed?- now

Last time you cried?- forgot

Do you burp in front of guys?- *BURP*

Whats your favorite girl magazine?- ehh...wassat? D:

Do you pick your wedgies in public?- YUMMY POTATO WEDGES

Do you ever cry during a romantic movie?- i have seen none ;D

How old were you when you 1st shaved your legs?- OMG I WANT MAH LEGS i will NOT shave them off (ouch how do u do that anyway?)

Can you pull off red lipstick?- !?!?!?! ?

Dare to share your bra size?- heh? wad if i dun wear one?

Ever been HOTTIE HUNTING?- wth is dat o.0

Do you think lipgloss is the best?- uh. i dont use it o.0

Ever use the term- EYE CANDY?- YUMMY CANDY EYEBALL 8D

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?- dunno? not worth counting

Who was your 1st kiss? Where were you?- -.-

Is pink the best color in the world?- NO WAY IDIOT

When did you last wear a little black dress?- I don't have dresses (they sux so do skirts but HEY...............nothing :D)

Do you often wish there was something you could change?- LOTS MAN

Do you like dressing up?- nope, but hey....................NOTHING 83

Do you own a really nice piece of jewelry?- eh maybe? not. not a, probably many?

Did you ever want to be an actress or model?- nope

Ever consider a sex change?- wtf stop asking mie stupid questions!?!?!?!??!?!?

Whats the best part about being a girl?- erm...u get to maple....WAIT guys get to maple too ==

(hahas goped from Maddie ;D)

ouch

2008-07-27T00:08:00.001+08:00

today (ytd la) went sentosa i bbqed in the sun until sooper red la. think i tan like chao tah a lot le. tan is bad and white is good, coz if tan then u stand in dark dark place no one can see u. if u white ppl see u in dark dark place then they tot is ghost then they scream. so fun de. and i don't get the thing about tan anyway. what's so great about it? i mean if u die and become a ghost u wont want to be a black patch of chao tah floating thing mah.

anyway the sentosa water safety outreach thing was super cool and fun. we gots a badge for doing the life saving thingy. there were really cool and funny drowning + saving demonstrations, and we had hands on too. WE ALSO SPLASHED AROUND FOR SO MUCH IN THE SEA HAHAS twas so fun and i drank a lot of salt water. bleah. actually it tasted nice 83

feeling bored and wants more quizzes

2008-07-26T09:34:00.001+08:00

I WANTS MORE QUIZZES GRAH AND IMMA VERY BORED going sentosa later BUT I HAVE NOT COMPLETED MY GEOG FA SINCE LAST NITE OMG I SUX TOTALLY AND IMMA HYPERING :D YAY

plus i hates geog. gonna drops it next year :D yay plus imma going to die for mah geog exam if i take such a long time to write this stupid thing D: stupid conservation measures for deforestation problems grah. k actually they're not stupid, BUT when in geog they are. rawr

I feel corny. all that corniness is welling up and it's NOT coming out. so i dont feel corny LOL.

I MUST GO BACK TO MY GEOG F5 RAWR QUIK GET BACK *NAGS AT SELF* *SMACKS SELF* *SCOLDS SELF* *ENDS THIS POST TO GO BACK TO GEOG* == HEY! - *IS BACK AT GEOG*

FEEL EPIC SADNESS

2008-07-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

LOL feel the sadness. we're so gonna not get into australia for CmPS and FPS oso. D: even if i get into CmPS but not FPS, i will feel damn sad. And if i get into FPS but not CmPS, it's ok, coz FPS always rocks more :D And if I get into neither, MMT MUST TREAT US TO EPIC EXPENSIVE HIGH CLASS DELICIOUS THOUSAND DOLLAR CUISINE muahahaha!!!!!

lols. if we get in for FPS, we'll buy MMT an ice cream :D haha. ice creams are good >.<

See our CmPS H2OSafe (un)official website at http://h20safe.blogspot.com CLICK NOW though theres nothing much there except DON'T WEAR PYJAMAS lols thats so cute. maybe i shall release a chibi version of it :D

neurotech creeps

2008-07-15T23:10:00.001+08:00

i think neurotech gives me weird ideas about the self. thats y it so creeps. that Ray guy was saying, in the future, there would be a virtual world, and u can download ur brain and body there. It would be fake, but a copy of you nonetheless. It was just exactly like you were when you downloaded it. It would claim that it was the real you, but you obviously know you are the REAL YOU. and even after your REAL body dies, the downloaded u will still be achieving high in the virtual world and claim to be the real you, although u clearly know not, coz you're dead.

SO i was wondering WHAT IS THE SELF? i mean like the brain can be the big boss that tells u that it is the self and part of you and has a part in the "self" spoken of. it could just be some external force controlling u w/o you knowing, and brainwashing you(uh...?!?!?!). it could just all be controlled by another bigger brain in another "real" world! zomfg!?!? actually our "self" is the empty shell that is of no use when this external "brain" leaves us...we could all have been used!

that's like so creep. and maybe of some people's self realisation, much of it is actually the truth, but it doesnt get out here because there's another external force that watches over us, like Big Brother...and this force...it knows what we do and terminates all those who haf found the truth...THAT SO CREEPS! omg. maybe we're just stimulated characters in a "fake" world modelled by some other thingies....and we wouldn't know omg.

ok i shant think further. its creeping me out D:

Tagged by Yeqi - again

2008-07-15T21:19:00.001+08:00

♥ People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
♥ Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

o1 ☆ How has LJ changed your life?
It makes blogger rock more
o2 ☆ What do you do before bedtime?
Roll around in bed, use the com/toilet/water
o3 ☆ What are you going to have for dinner tonight?
Nagging/Scolding
o4 ☆ Aliens have come to invade planet Earth and you find yourself face to face with one of the aliens, except it has fallen in love with you and asks "Marry me?" What do you do?
Shoot it man!
o5 ☆ Are you an introvert or extrovert?
huh?
o6 ☆ Name something you wish you could do in your free time, but don't actually do.
Play weiqi D: right i have no free time ==
o7 ☆ Do you trust easily?
Yes. and no.
o8 ☆ What personal belonging do you have with you everywhere you go?
Handphone
o9 ☆ Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Everything! lols sound so emo...i was jk...actually i dunno...
1o ☆ What is your best quality?
Laughy lol
11 ☆ Do you plan on changing questions in this meme, or are you too lazy for that?
kan zhe ban
12 ☆ How do you see yourself?
Laffy
13 ☆ Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family, friends, my tofu (the last one gave me comfort when no one was there for me)
14 ☆ What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
nice and can be evil too XD generally more nice plus a bit de weird (which is good)
15 ☆ Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Single and rich
16 ☆ How many children do you want to have, if any?
Refer to Q15 (just up there so dun be lazy)
17 ☆ What's better to give or to receive?
If u give you receive :D lols
18 ☆ ~~If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?~~
Neither. or all. or myself. or something else. or my tofu <3 :D

I shall answer both Qs :D
18 ☆ What would you do if someone you disliked kissed you?
SHOUT LES/GAY AND KICK MAN!
19 ☆ Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
I would send a prostitute over to do it and then take the $$ *kaching* $$ and pay her that oh so little amount for the service muahahahahahaha
2o ☆ What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender?
dunno?

Tagged by Yeqi

2008-07-15T17:32:00.001+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
☆ Moose
☆ YL
☆ cookie
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
☆ SabrieI
☆ bubbleangry :D bubble?~
☆ eatedcookie D:
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
☆ Crazy
☆ Insane
☆ Messy (hey all 3 arent physical but they end up SHOWING physically)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
☆ eyes (they could be more sharp)
☆ brain (~~they~~ it could have faster reaction and more coordination)
☆ heart (it's too broken. i cutted it you see. did i tell you about the squishing and how i spoilt the heart and cut it up and in the end it looked like a flower? yesh imma talking abt sheep's heart,not mine ==)
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
what heritage? o.0
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
☆ Spiders
☆ Sharp stuff (i unconsciously found)
☆ Toady stuff (like Umbridge)
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
☆ Food
☆ Computer(maple D:)
☆ Friends
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
☆ Nothing (i CORNtradict myself hahas)
☆ Glasses
☆ Underwear -.-
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
☆ Nightmare :D
☆ Dream :D
☆ Utada Hikaru :D (lols i just found out i dint put a smiley for it and i adds it!)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
☆ Thousand Years Love Song - DBSK
☆ Get Over - Dream
☆ the WORLD - Nightmare
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
☆ a dog
☆ a friend
☆ more friends (the dog help me make friends you see. right. im not answering the question)
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER:
☆ L is an idiot
☆ Raito is an idiot
☆ I am an idiot
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
☆ Humour (haha)
☆ Idiocy (that makes him humorous to laff at lol)
☆ Silliness (more laffing, i guess)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
☆ Laughing
☆ Mapling D:
☆ Drawing
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
☆ Smash a head
☆ Hug (uh...prolly smth nice and huggable...like my tofu)
☆ FPS Practice Problem (wad is wrong with me?!?!?!)
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
☆ Plastic Surgeon
☆ GP
☆ Accountant (when the above dun work D:)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
☆ Japan
☆ Korea (not the nuclear part pls)
☆ China :D
THREE NAMES YOU LIKE:
☆ Sabriel (a duh)
☆ L (short and sweet. talk abt sweets....yum...)
☆ MapleStory (the name of a MMPORPG [hey i rember it :D]) :D
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
☆ ~~Reach lvl 200~~ have 2 lvl 100 characters (100+100=200 mah...wait it isn't ==)
☆ Learn 独孤九剑 (fat hope)
☆ Smash a head
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
☆ ...um...i can screech lol
☆ There are certain buying impuslse
☆ OCD? i dun think so.....la.....
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
☆ I hate pink
☆ I hate bimbos
☆ I like gory
THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
☆ i shant tag anyone so there :D

OMG

2008-07-13T19:07:00.001+08:00

OMG i hate myself i have passed 6 PERFECT STATS FOR MAGICIAN OMG zzz imma so mad at myself my hand eye coordination is SO BAD i could get killed by my own sword ohnoes i must train on tht more D:

I gOPed lols

2008-07-13T18:58:00.001+08:00

How tall are you?
im not. im short u dumbass

Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship.
nope. imma very good fren (i hope) and theres nth to be unfaithful abt in a tchr-student relationship

Do you own a gun?
yesh. i just drew one on a piece of paper. it's 2D and black/

If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
i already have one. it's Lfangirlism (ohnoes)

How many letters are there in your crushes’ name?
...i dont have one....i have more....(hahaha jkjk like as if i would even haf but hey that was cheesy)

What do you think of hot dogs?
yum

What’s your favourite christmas song?
nah. hate christmas songs. just like the presents

What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milo

Do you do push-ups?
maybe

Have you ever done ecstasy?
imma always ecstatic, so lol judge that yourself

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
i have both, in plural

Do you like the rain?
naw. i think Rain is an idiot and he doesn't even know how to sing and i think he has lots of dandruff and i dont think black is the only cool thing, but it's still cool but purple is cool too and so is Nightmare.

Do you own a knife?
sword?
Full initials?
SSC

Name three thoughts at this exact moment.
lols
haha
i wanna maple

Name the last three things you had bought today.
nothing, nothing and nothing. they're really cool so don't scold me for buying them. besides, they werent THAT expensive

What time did you wake up today?

12pm

Can you spell?
duh. q-u-e-s-t-i-o-n m-a-r-k

Current worry
FPS (gulp)(ohnoes)

Current hate?
BIMBOS

Favourite place to be?
in maple

Least favourite place to be?
with bimbos

Where would you like to go?
MAPLE LA nvr see meh

Do you own slippers?
no

What do you think you will be?
mass murderer pretending to be L (wait...i din't realise that meant Beyond Birthday[read: Another Note])

Yellow or Blue.
B...BBB....BBBBB....BOTH!!! WADDLE RICHARD WADDLE RICHARD CHOOCHOO (train)

Would you be a pirate.
i sed. i.will.be.BeyondBirthday.

Last time your cell rang?
my fone is always on silent, so dont blame me if i don't pick up your call

What songs do you sing in the shower.
i don't sing in the shower! i sing on the toilet bowl lol (haha sing IN the toilet bowl hahahaha)

What did you fear was gonna get you at night as a child?

oh. my parents

What’s in your pockets right now?
no pockets srry

Last thing that made you laugh.
everything makes me laff so i kinda lost track

Bed sheets you had as a child?
none srry. stop asking stupid questions that dont apply to MIEEEE!!!

Worst injury you ever had?
my heart. someone broke it becoz he was carrying it and i tripped him and he dropped it and fell on the floor and CRACK! lol

How many TVs do you have in the house?
2

Who is your loudest friend?
...SSay...

Does someone have a crush on you?
nope. i feel rather intact. tell me if im not though (ohnoes dun wanna be squished)

Do you wish on stars?
ahh i tried to go on the sun to wish ON it but it was too hot and it killed me (oops i accidentally activated my maple by clicking on the picture which started it)

What is your favourite book?
笑傲江湖

What song did you last hear?
Thousand Years Love Song (on TV)

What were you doing 12am last night?
sleeping

What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up.
am i awake?

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