life doesnt go on
Thursday, December 22, 2011
i realised that i spend around 80% of my life in misery.
i don't remember any time i've been truly happy without the burden of being sad at the same time.
no one to confide in, because i socially paranoid.
lifeless, in the sense that my life is not my own.
lost, because we always are; it's just a matter of whether we know it or not.
and i happen to have the lack of confidence, which told me this.
well i have lovely people around me, ofc. but i don't want to be a stupid complainy naggy thing. that's just really annoying.
my mood is just horrid in general.
and i don't know how to fix it.
i doubt that it would make any difference even if things were going my way.
maybe i just need an oven now.
i need an oven.
i need a fucking oven.
Sent from my DS Lite @ 11:39 PM
